Saturday, May 23, 2009


i was screaming in ecstasy when this shot, THE SHOT, went through this morning. this is why lebron is the MVP.

lets go cavs!



the cynic spoke @ 10:26 PM

times flies faster than a supersonic jet and sprints faster than usain bolt. okay lah time just travels damn fast. its like 1 more week of term left until the june hols. then its break for a one month non-holiday. sigh. the culmination of 12 years of studying seems just sround the corner, but yet so distant cos honestly i still cant see myself taking that exam 5 months from now. sometimes, motivation and momentum are just so hard to find.

first half of the year has sort of been a continuation of last year. busy over seemingly meaningless things. lagging in tutorials i shldnt be lagging in. wasting watever time i have away, whether it is free or not. guess i've never really been one to make good use of time. old habits just refuse to die. haha.

biggest difference has been not going baoguan for meetings on sundays anymore. really not used to it at first. for 3 years it was a habit, sundays at baoguan. xiao3 room, conference room, coffeeshops, tze char. seeing familiar faces, hearing familiar voices. not needing to tink abt anything else. officially retired on april 26th. thats like almost one month ago. probably my real second home. grew up there. 3 comms, each with their distinct character i guess. 9 jie was young, i was young. i still rmbr joking and laughing my ass off with lianfei during meetings. havent talked to that guy in a daaaaamn long time. jiamin's hair wasnt that long yet. mincong bought snacks almost every meeting. haha.

10 jie is the comm with fondest memories. wangguan and yinyue's jokes and laughter, jiamin mincong nishuai and xuchang who are like brothers and sisters, qite and zongjun's coldness, xiaohua the beacon of reason and xiping ever the model of excellence. haha. sports comm. camp comm. all the blood. all the sweat. all the tears. memories. fond ones. and we were real bonded. you could feel it. it was real. haha.

11 jie was a fresh experience. like helping to lead a comm when ur actually one of the youngest in it. and working with new ppl, new faces. it was really great watching the comm grow, watching ppl develop feelings for the organization, watching us put our all in sth we believed in. we're bonded, in a different way i guess.

now ppl are all over the place. in uni, applying for uni, in NS, ORD alr. they say good things always come to an end. i've nvr really bought into that. yeah it hasnt ended, its only just begun.

guess i've gotten used to not going for meetings. certainly got more time now. haha. oh well. miss the ppl though, and theres so much catching up to do.

time to buck up from next month onwards i guess. full steam ahead. probably the good thing about taking things easy so far is that i wont be running on fumes by the end of the year. i've got my own pace, no need to compare with other ppl i guess?

and in the meantime, there's only one thing on my mind for the rest of this last week (:



the cynic spoke @ 9:30 PM

hi to all avid readers of my blog from 6K.

ur classmate is fine and nothing much has happened haha. so theres no need to be too worried! thanks for all ur concern though.

by the way you are all free to tag my blog whenever u visit cos as u can see the board is abit dead. HAHA.

in the meantime if theres sth really wrong with her u can always tell me about it.

oh and dont bully her yah? (:



the cynic spoke @ 9:16 PM

Tuesday, May 19, 2009
they always say - u need to do wats got to be done.

they just dont know wat a painful decision it can be sometimes.

ur right. circumstances change. apparently people with tunnel vision are more determined to get to where they want to be. but when ur in a tunnel u cant accommodate other ppl with u.

so we made a decision. its the best thing that can happen now i guess.

i'll wait. will you?



the cynic spoke @ 10:37 PM

Saturday, May 16, 2009
this place is so dead i wonder why i keep coming back. about the only use for my blog now is for bloghopping using the link on the right LOL.

just lost all feel for blogging i guess. when i first started this place it was an avenue to write down and organise my own thoughts so that i wont die of overburdening myself with my own emotions. i guess i've nvr really been good with expressing certain emotions vocally. i dont really confide in ppl. so this place came about to dump all my thoughts and let ppl make their own judgments for themselves.

guess somewhere along the way we tend to realise that certain things are best left unsaid, best left to ourselves. its like, u log in and type one whole draft of shit and end up deleting the drafts. some ppl rant to themselves on their blogs, but nvr actually post them. but they keep those drafts. i rant on my blog and delete the drafts. thats the way it is. all bad feelings are gone once deleted.

and now? there's just no need to blog anymore. u find other avenues for ur thoughts to go to. moral of the story is that introspective people who dont talk much die of emotional stress. damn. sometimes its just best to feel numbed.



the cynic spoke @ 10:58 PM

Friday, May 15, 2009
sometimes, it doesnt feel the like.

and it just keeps coming back to bite.



the cynic spoke @ 11:23 PM

Wednesday, May 6, 2009
perhaps i'm not able to catch up with myself.



the cynic spoke @ 9:48 PM