Sunday, April 26, 2009
i dont know why he hell i am feeling this way, why the hell i am so affected.

this is just wrong, so damn wrong.

why is it so hard to reconcile all these emotions.

why dont u tell me?



the cynic spoke @ 10:58 PM

Thursday, April 23, 2009
today has been a very tough day. woke up feeling so shagged i almost fell asleep showering. plus a sore throat so bad i wanted to cough my lungs out, by the time i got to sch all i wanted to do was to sleep sleep and sleep so i wouldnt feel so tortured. by the end of the day i thought i was having a fever. speak about scaring urself. but was coughing so badly the whole day i thought i was gonna cough up blood any second. zzz..

fortunately enough i'm feeling better now. would have died if i needed to do a lab report while sick or sth. sch is really such a pain in the ass ppl are already counting down to the end of the A levels when really wat we shld be doing is count down to the start of it.

at least i got that part of life outside of sch.

jiuzhi is this sunday. suddenly 3 years in zaobao exco would have flown by. oh well. perhaps on sunday i'll look back and realise how much i've changed over these 3 years. in fact i can look back at how life has changed so much over the past year, let alone the past 3 years. life changes. circumstances change. people change.

they say change is the only constant. maybe one day, things should just remain constant for a change.

ok incoherence shall stop here lest i start ranting. back to the dumb lab report. will i be glad once tonight is over.



the cynic spoke @ 9:20 PM

Sunday, April 19, 2009
i'm in a daze. suddenly everything just piles on.

cant wait for this week to be over, when it hasnt even started.

speak of being fucked.



the cynic spoke @ 10:10 PM

Saturday, April 18, 2009
today has been a mother &*$& hot day. and i'm partially burnt from all the bball. sian.

so today was ORA. the 6th time it's been held since i entered raffles and only the 2nd time i've gone. and i only went cos i got "encouraged" into going by tew and my very dear civics tutor. like who the hell would want to drag him/herself up like its a normal sch day on a sat and waste almost 5 hours of his/her life away when he/she can sleep in like a pig right?

not me.

ended up doing a combination of playing bball with zhengjun and stoning the rest of the day away. this year's event was super cluttered =/// met loke in the morning (and helped zhengjun help her carry 10000 t shirts to the band room) and weiting who was having council camp.

speaking of which, she finally didnt slap/whack me. why?

"today dont whack you lah u so sweaty" -.-

had PW group "celebratory" lunch after ORA! which is no celebration i tink we lost the mood long ago but still they're always good company! tew decided to be nice and help me spam cheese on my pizza, with ppl staring. LOL. win.

oh well. time to carry on reading up for my lab report.

people ask why i've become happier,
cos they don't know that you are my greatest joy.



the cynic spoke @ 8:17 PM

Thursday, April 16, 2009
its cos many things are easier said than done, that words have to be backed up by actions.

and then there are some things that are easier done than said.

thats why some things that we do, need no explanation.



the cynic spoke @ 11:01 PM

Sunday, April 12, 2009
that feeling keeps coming back, paying a visit every once in a while.

go away go away go away.

SIGHHHH.



the cynic spoke @ 10:20 PM

Sunday, April 5, 2009
how do u know, when u have too much confidence. too much faith. too much belief.

u cant ever know for sure. so u just try ur best. and give ur all.

and leave the rest to fate.



the cynic spoke @ 5:46 PM