Tuesday, March 31, 2009
连最理智的人也有不理智的时刻
连最冷静的人也有最疯狂的时候
连最沉默的人也有大声呐喊的权利
连最冷漠的人也有被打动的那天

一生能有多少不理智的时刻
一生能有多少疯狂的时候
一生能有多少次能让我们放声大喊
一生能有多少次被真正地打动

因为这是信念
往往无理智可言
因为要追
追逐可以很疯狂
因为要对你说
大胆呐喊也没关系
因为我在等那一天
所以不会放弃



the cynic spoke @ 10:43 PM

Monday, March 30, 2009
sometimes, what i say gets lost in transition. so ppl misunderstand and watever, and 99% of the time i wont be bothered to clarify any shit. unless the misunderstanding is damn gross. or i tink wat u tink is impt. otherwise i dont care wat u tink. lol. just move on and it'll be as though nth happened.

then sometimes i crack jokes which are deemed as offensive, even though i dont mean any. so why bother saying i meant no harm, when if i explain things could get worse. if u know me u know i'm not serious. alternatively if ur really offended feel free to crack one abt me since if u can afford to do so it probably means i wont take offence lol.

okay the moral of the story is, if i go to great lengths to clarify sth to u, it means i care. otherwise i dont give a shit.

okay i just had to get that off my chest LOL. anw CTs were finally over even though i had H3 after that. decided to get out of house during weekend to get some fresh air.

went for last 11jie meeting ytd. oh well. time really flies. then nvr go camp totally dont recognize all the new peeps. haha. soon i'll be ancient LOL.

then went eat with 11jie peeps + aolan. hahaha. then heard joke of the week. courtesy of rx, who said sth abt king kong "beating aeroplanes" on the empire state building causing me and xuchang to burst into a prolonged laughing fit. that scene is just tai4 funny. HAHA. ok watever good for u if u understand the joke. if u dont, it means ur not meant to. LOL.

just now bro came to my room while i was away, and i saw this (in paint) after i got back:

just totally nth to do right LOL.

ok i'm just so bored even though theres stuff to do. byee.



the cynic spoke @ 8:24 PM

Sunday, March 29, 2009
because..



the cynic spoke @ 11:24 PM

Saturday, March 21, 2009
just got off the phone with jiamin. who dropped by at camp for awhile. looks like everyone went back! all the lao3 ren2 whom i've not seen in more than a year! and i cant go sian sucks oh well. have to look forward to next year liao. haha.

this week has been some shit week. NTU for 4 days. waste time. now i'm underprepared for CTs yay. hahaha. ok watever. i'll judge myself in july.

ok next week CTs so i'll be taking hiatus for a week. unless theres sth i really really need to post here. and the prospects of that happening dont seem to be very good. hahaha.

and who needs rainbows,
if i could see you everyday.



the cynic spoke @ 10:53 PM

Sunday, March 15, 2009
thats 2 days of no mug gone. hahaha. holidays have started which is no holiday cos i'll be spending 4 days at NTU doing stupid lab work and going thru dumb lectures and tutorials OMG sian then fri go back sch for consultation and remedial. no time to mug for CTs liao = obviously no time for holidays. oh wells. talk abt having a good rest, when i cant even slp like a pig.

anw amongst all the madness which has been going on, there has been ONE LONE bright spark in life recently.......................

.....................................................................

THE OPENING OF SOME... i duno wat the place is called (oops) but ok thats beside the point. its some mini new shopping mall with residences. ok anw the most impt thing is I DO NOT HAVE TO PUT UP WITH SHIT FOOD IN YEW TEE ANYMORE. omg cause for joy!

so theres a long john's open, subway open, old chang kee open, koufu gonna open, burger king gonna open! like woooooot no more shitty food! hopefully the retarded family food court gets closed down or sth, and get replaced by.. i duno. some pool place there will be good. HAHA.



the cynic spoke @ 10:17 PM

Thursday, March 12, 2009
conviction can be a very scary thing. cos it can make or break u.

like believing in what is right, or what is wrong.

conviction needs judgment. but conviction clouds judgment.

cos conviction is an unshakable belief in something without need for proof or evidence.

conviction is irrational.

and so are many many things in life.



the cynic spoke @ 9:55 PM

Tuesday, March 10, 2009
where do i start?

less arrogance. less indifference.

more normalcy. more action.

this has been a really really draining term. and i desperately need to find a balance.

and i'm really sorry.



the cynic spoke @ 11:17 PM

Saturday, March 7, 2009
sometimes i wish i can just disappear from this life.

no more responsibilities, no more work, no more shit, no more watever.

then i wonder, what i will miss out on.



the cynic spoke @ 10:10 PM

Thursday, March 5, 2009
i am 18, and i need to sort myself out.

it's time to start doing things i've told myself i'll do since forever.

time to stop wasting my time on unimportant stuff.

time to spend more time on important stuff.

time to go after what i really want.

time to study more, play less.

time to focus.

time to feel stressed.

time to stop wasting time.

i had ambitions. i lost them. i had motivation. i lost it. i had the right frame of mind. it went wrong. i had everything going before it grinded to a halt.

operation get back on the right track starts next week. after i've settled all my shit. and u wont ever bother me anymore. or i'll do to you what i do to anyone else who pissed me off.




the cynic spoke @ 11:14 PM

Wednesday, March 4, 2009
2 kinds of ppl muquan ABSOLUTELY DETESTS MOST in this world:

1. control freaks
2. BLOODY NAGGY PEOPLE

ok disclaimer: if ppl nag at me for my own good, thats a different story.

but watever lah. 3 more bloody months before i make sure YOU TOTALLY DISAPPEAR FROM MY LIFE.



the cynic spoke @ 9:43 PM

Sunday, March 1, 2009
如果退一步能海阔天空，
那这一步，
会有多艰难呢？



the cynic spoke @ 12:02 AM