Sunday, September 21, 2008
ok everything starts tmr so i'll be on a mini 4 day hiatus.

all the best ppl!



the cynic spoke @ 10:12 PM

Saturday, September 20, 2008
heres the mother of all ironies:

3 months ago in june, i was complaining that theres not enough bloody time for me to prepare for CTs.

3 months later now, i tink i'm losing focus at the most crucial moment. gg.

nvm i shall just kid myself with my overinflated confidence and be brought back down to earth in a few weeks time. its not as if i've not gone through that before.

oh and did i tell u that ur my greatest motivation?



the cynic spoke @ 10:50 PM

Friday, September 19, 2008
the weather is SO NOT conducive for studying.

like wth am i glad that exams are conducted in the hall with air con blasting. like seriously i dont understand why ppl would complain that its cold when they can complain that its hot.

hot weather totally pisses me off. no i tink thats a severe understatement. and then theres the humidity. if only i had a really really thirsty hippo at home. -.-

ARGH ok lets hope tmr will be a cooler day. a cooler day will be a better day. today, was just plain screwed up.



the cynic spoke @ 10:53 PM

Thursday, September 18, 2008
i thought i was getting hopeless at math.

but then it just seems like, the more frustrated u get, the more u cant tink.

i hate losing my cool. and lately it seems like sth that happens very easily.

so its finally getting to me i guess. one week. it'll be over in exactly a week.

must survive. cant lose steam now. ah well.



the cynic spoke @ 12:03 AM

Monday, September 15, 2008
one more week lol i guess i'm ok with my progress. and my progress is ok. so i shld feel ok. lololol.

and to mr. hsiang chengwen: i've deleted all ur retarded tags cos they dont look good and one of them is extremely obscene. stop spamming my tagboard or i'll quit EA. yes i'm threatening u. HAHA. no wait i'm not even sure my grades can make it. -.-

one more day and its study break. pray i dont need to go back to sch during study break zzz bye.



the cynic spoke @ 10:33 PM

Sunday, September 7, 2008
URGH sch starts tmr. i dont wanna go back omg. (but its got more to do with sleep. i love sleep.)

ok becoming more productive i hope i can get some real stuff done. and i was looking back at my chem CT1 and i still tink its the single most screwed up i've done for any paper. so i ended up getting 2 grades below wat i know i could have gotten and its just REGRET. somehow i feel it'll come back to haunt me at the end of the year.

2 more weeks. time is running out. 2 main issues to iron out:

1. stop being so careless
2. time management

these 2 double-handedly (if they had hands) kill me. murderers. but then its me murdering myself so wat can i say?

oh and muquan has to stop being so vulgar. from now onwards. immediately. LOLLLL.



the cynic spoke @ 11:08 PM

Friday, September 5, 2008
17 days. in just over half an hour it'll be 16.

i am (strangely or not), not stressed. lol wait i dont tink i've been stressed before exams before. but trust me i get REAL stressed on exam day itself so its not like thats very helpful. haha. ok at least i'm feeling the urgency. so i promised to do much better for promos. by completing my papers. from the looks of it these 2 weeks will have to be intense if i wanna achieve my goal of.. completing my papers. no more kissing 10 marks goodbye in each paper due to bad time management and poor mindset. i mean, i noe i'm a generous guy.. but there's got to be a limit rite? LOLLL.

and complacency is seriously a scary thing. damn i hope i'm nvr complacent again. and that i'll be stressed come the same time next year. hoho.

went sch ytd and the day before ytd. which is wed and thur la. turns out the whole world was mugging there i thought i was late for a normal sch day. lol ok la i've learnt alot of lessons this year, and the most impt one being i study best alone in solitude. so no sch for me. (i mean, 2 hours walking transport and waiting time, i can finish one econs case study and more?)

and finally almost done with PW. i count my PW grpmates among the best things that have happened for me this year cos seriously i couldnt have asked for better grpmates! so thx tew hongye and joy! yah and joy for lending us her house on 3 different occasions. wooot.

yeah and been talking to bro quite alot lately. i suspect its due to his timetable which reminds me of DMP in RI. so i was saying i trying to prac econs under exam conditions, then he said u can nvr do that since u can nvr replicate the stress conditions of an exam, and likened that to practising as many penalty kicks as u want but u nvr feel the stress until u actually take a real one. but that doesnt mean u dont practise penalty kicks. ok thats not the point. the point is he said sth about England not being able to win PKs cos of the historical baggage. does that mean, after 10 years of formal education, and 10 years of making stupid dumb careless mistakes, that i'll nvr be able to stop making careless mistakes? sian..

and i wish my mailbox will stop getting spammed with (no not facebook) emails which i dont really have the mood to read and which i dont really wanna care about at this present time. and i thought i made myself clear i dont want to bother myself with these until after promos when i can actually focus all my attention into it. like i will anw. -.-

ok end of crapping. jiayou everyone! after promos we have OP! LOLLL.

and justina zhuang pls take care of ur fractured wrist. painful injury that :/ but cast can use to whack ppl though (i presume u have one on. hoho)

and 1 month on. just grateful everything's just like before.

and nothing i said has changed. (:



the cynic spoke @ 11:20 PM

Monday, September 1, 2008
struck me recently that my memories of my childhood are really poor/non-existent.

like randomly meeting ur pri 1 classmate and have her recognize u but u dont have any impression of her at all.

like ur pri 1 classmate adding u on friendster and u dont rmbr her at all.

then i tink like 2 weeks ago, tew suddenly asked me, "eh, so and so ur kindergarten schoolmate ah?"

then i'm like, eating and almost choked. LOL. kindergarten schoolmate, seriously i have no impression. oh and for the record, that guy was in the same secondary school as me for 4 years.

then tew said, "lol next time show u photo." win.

i guess i've not looked back at photographs from the past in eons. not sentimental? lol. dont like to tink that way, cos i tink i'm seriously quite sad if i'm like that.

but it seriously amazes me how good ppl's memories can be. haha. maybe its just me..

so i browse facebook photos (after studying for a day mind you i dont have so much time), yah and some faces look distinctly familiar. haha.

but i'm pretty sure 20 years on from now, i wont forget the present. too important to me.

but hey if u recognize me from 10 years ago, feel free to approach me. it'll be a pleasant surprise haha.



the cynic spoke @ 10:37 PM