Wednesday, April 23, 2008
wth i fell sick again zzz.. 11 jie must be jinxed now its my turn to fall sick. so timely can sunday jiu4 zhi2 liao if i'm ill on that day i can just go tiao4 lou2. the late nights must have taken their toll. haiz haiz..

but anw i'm fine now but for the persistent headache. trust me my head really felt like exploding while i was walking home. omg la. then after 3 hours of slp only one side of the head stop aching. zzz...

anw something interesting. my class must be some walking pharmacy or sth. germaine brings eyedrops to sch (yah i used twice liao haha), and suchin brings panadol haha! heres how i found out..

me (looking absolutely like shit after PE): -walks into canteen to whr some of the class is sitting. plonk down on the canteen bench looking dieded.-

suchin: "wah you dont look well leh. are u ok?"

me: "no i tink i'm sick. got bad headache."

suchin: "ohh. u need panadol?"

me: "yeah i guess.."

suchin: "ok u wait ah" -starts reaching into her bag, presumably to take panadol-

me: "-half surprised. half amused.- haha dont need la my stomach empty shldnt take medicine."

then i started laughing cos she brings panadol to sch! lolol. ok. thx alot anw haha even though i didnt take it. =) and thx to everyone who showed concern! i'm fine le (i hope, i always recover within 5 hours of getting home.)

yah and the repairman come my house le. say my com is software failure not hardware failure. gg XX i need to reformat my com tmd. ALL MY SONGS! suchin i need ur help le! hahaha.

and you made my day. even if for a brief moment going home.



the cynic spoke @ 8:27 PM

Tuesday, April 22, 2008
zomg as i'm typing this my nose is having a damn strong urge to sneeze until it dislocates off from my face! zzzz i shall NOT do a michael jackson impersonation.

glad to survive the day. though it wasnt a very good start. having slept at between 2.30am-3am in the morning, i was damn tired when i woke up. so when alarm sounded, i DIDNT snooze it zomg so dumb then i went back to slp tinking i could slp for another 10 mins. then ended up sleeping past that. overslept by wat, 25 mins?

ok then i heard thunder. half of me wishing it will rain so i dont need to rush the other half wishing it wont so that i wont be caught in the rain. then the worst case scenario happened. while i was taking shower, the rain STARTED FALLING. WTHHH. so when i stepped out of house the pavement was BLOODY FLOODED and i had to walk on the grass LOLOLOLOL.

yah reached bishan found a damn long queue and huge crowd of rj students at the bus stop. then tew called. ask me whr i am then go late together. turns out she took 410 liao (with suchin and jiahui and gang), ok so i boarded bus later than her. the pavement outside ri gate also flooded la damn win. its a miracle i got to sch without getting my feet wet. -.-

reached sch and received msg from tew. LOL they havent reach sch yet! haha. 410 probably goes one big round bad choice to take that bus mann. zzz..

managed to survive the day without dozing off, save for a brief 15 seconds during econs lecture when nat tried talking to me and bored me until i slept LOL. surprising given the grand total of just over 3 hours of slp i had. basically it could be considered a morning nap. lolol.

yah got home and took another nap. was planning to wake up at 5 and as always me the pig overslept until 7. and somehow after the nap i feel even more lethargic and tired. zzz.. me not one for naps man.

ok then i'm off tmr got bio mock spa. bye!



the cynic spoke @ 9:10 PM

lol so everyone shld have known by now my com crashed (5 month old com crash wth), and yah so i using my old com now. luckily nvr throw away.

the crash damn timely can, when i need to use it for so much stuff. zzz... and wat first hard disk failure in all the years i owned a com zzz...

anw yes its 2am now i just chionged finish PI. there is still yiusum jiahui and nicole online. hoho. just for good measure amelia yijun hiok alina jiamin are still online too. LMAO. and i'm damn sure this is just like, the first of many late nights doing PW related stuff.

sian la i need to go slp bye.



the cynic spoke @ 2:07 AM

Friday, April 18, 2008
so glad the week is finally over. haiz haiz. though i'm sure next week will be like even busier.

2 days of rehearsals plus jiuzhi on sunday and probably going to go down for YC activity on wed. plus bio mock spa on wed. and work due. lolololol. weekend SHALL NOT be wasted this time.

and somehow we're always finding excuses to convince ourselves to believe in the truths we want to believe in, going all blind and fuddled in the process. i guess my point was totally missed, and well it just didnt occur to u, that i actually wasnt really interested, and wat i meant for u was to focus on other things which are so much more important, instead of spending all ur time tinking about that matter which frankly, if ur not going to do anything about it, nth will happen.

and the feelings that are hardest to deal with, are those that suddenly resurface out of nowhere when u least expect it.




the cynic spoke @ 11:04 PM

Wednesday, April 16, 2008
i just realised how time is passing faster than i thought. i was just happily shitting in the toilet ytd when i started tinking: "ehh, wat week is it this week ah? week 5 rite? yah week 5 cos got mock SPA."

then it struck me: "ZOMG WEEK 5 ALR AFTER THIS WEEK THATS LIKE HALF THE TERM OVER"

like wth. no time to catch my breath. this year is really gonna pass damn fast. perhaps its cos i'm enjoying sch more ba, and well, good things nvr last. oh wells.

at this point of the week i just feel damn drained and exhausted and really really tired la. maybe not so mentally, but physically. lolol been sleep deprived and the effects have been quite significant, like increased frequency of yawns. as if i dont yawn enough. zzzz...

BLYC exco speeches were quite ok i guess. considering how i last minute improvised and how bad the original script was anw, i could have done much worse ba. so yeah just keep fingers crossed. econs essay "test" tmr (which i havent studied a single shit for hoho GG XX), though doing tutorial certainly helped abit. chem SPA on fri. need to do up PI and part of GPP. wargh. i need to survive the week.

cant wait until week is over. then i can start catching up on sleep as well as tutorials.



the cynic spoke @ 11:04 PM

Monday, April 14, 2008
ok anw this is the no-life:

sch ends. studying session promptly begins. it can take place in the library or the canteen. the usual gang consists of: me, nat, yiusum, jiahui, zhengjun, nicole. with guest appearances by: amanda loke, weiting and germaine. and the one who always pangseh who goes by the name amanda tew. hoho.

studying session is efficient when everyone shuts up. which is nvr the case. cos it can turn into a brutal slandering session or talk-cock laugh ur ass off session. when nth can be done. LOLOLOL.

but yah i love laughing with them. xDDD



the cynic spoke @ 10:13 PM

ok so i havent blogged in a long time. quite a long time. considering that i blog rather regularly. hoho. anw due to peer pressure/popular demand/my own guilt for not blogging/my urge to blog now, i am here to update. lolol WOW! frankly i didnt expect my blog to have so many fans. HAHA jkjk.

anw the past week has been some hell of a busy week. sth i dont mind of cos given the amount of time i have simply wasted away (a result of too much free time). but then everything seems to come together. wat with CCA stuff, jiu4 zhi4 drawing nearer, tests and whatnot coming in all at once. hard to find breathing space really, and this will probably carry on for the next few upcoming weeks at least, due to the need to achieve wat we set ourselves out to do. oh wells.

anw been having SO SO SO many random thoughts running through my head. we're into the 2nd quarter of the year alr, and being in a new environment, well, lets just say its been an even bigger eye-opener. and u thought u saw it all before in ri, then u come here and well, u see alot more sides and even more jing4 bao4 stuff and things u wouldnt expect out of the ppl here. (2 weeks stand anyone?)

anw the reason why those thoughts havent seen the back of this page yet is cos i havent had the chance to really get down to writing them in. i duno. guess this place is really a place where i pen my shit down and keep track of my mental processes so that i can assure myself i'm not really going haywire. LOL ignore the previous sentence. i really wanna pen them down, to read for myself how i really feel, instead of having stupid random thoughts running through my head disorganized and disappearing yet having a peripheral presence at the back of my head, not being able to make their exit.

lets just say, life has slowly been turning into a no-life. not that i didnt expect it. maybe somehow, thats how i really wanted it. finding laughter and fulfillment through the ppl around you even as the going is tough. thats why the ppl around u, the friends u make, the company u have, its so so important. acquit urself with the wrong ppl and well, there really goes ur 2 years. that innate drive and ability to force urself is invaluable, and i guess deep down i really hope for their own good ppl will understand this and really get down to work. (perhaps i've been wanting to tell for so long, but i really just cant do it in the face. well, hope they can take it in, cos at the end of the day, its for ur own good).

speaking of friends, its been really comforting to know that i havent lost all means of communication with old frens, esp. those closer ones whom i guess i really treasure. cant say the same for others though. thats a huge regret on my part. ayeeee. anw crashed amelia's clique dinner like 2 fridays ago. haha. there was hiok nat and yijun plus ruyun and cheryl ng too. it was just jokes la. hahaha. much fun and laughter. even more peace and joy. haha. train ride home was, well, quite funny as well i guess.

and last week. guess its a week many ppl probably wanted to forget. dont want to say much la. though a few years down the road we'll probably look back at it and treat it as sth that doesnt seem as significant as it does now. its really a growing experience i guess, growing pains. but i tink its right to say it isnt everything in life, though perhaps it really is at the moment, to those who put in their 110%. but well, stand up again and move on, cos really ur dont have anything to prove to anyone. and there'll be bigger chances for ur in future (might seem un-real to ur now, but really its true la). so to u: jiayou jiayou. like last month u were the one telling me not to emo. hope i've been able to help u in any way in the past week. =)))

and yes funny things have been happening. like me and suchin becoming "good frens" like
wowowow. courtesy of who else can it be but our dearest math tutor! so anw it started out in lecture when we were PAYING ATTENTION and talking at the same time. thats effective multitasking ok! then yiusum showed us this HILARIOUS PEBBLE ("this is my pet pebble") and i was laughing my ass off and passing it back when the lecturer, who well u might have guessed it is our dear math tutor, called the name of the so fortunate person.

math tutor:"suchin!"
whole LT: "OHHH"
math tutor: "*proceeds to chide student with her carefully selected words"

after she finish her lecture still come up scold some more siao siao when we were PAYING ATTENTION. as in really got take notes lor. siao. stupid old hag. then UNFORTUNATELY after math lecture is math tutorial. then old woman memory good mah. everyone went toilet. i go up whiteboard solve problem. she suddenly went mad.

math tutor: "wheres ur GOOD FREN suchin?"
me: "errr........she went toilet..."
math tutor: "better make sure theres nth wrong with her. go toilet can go so long."

WOW SO I AM SUPPOSED TO ENTER THE FEMALE TOILET AND CHECK ON HER RITE. WTHHHHHH MANNNN. LOLOLOLOLOLOLOOOOOOL JOOOOKKESSSSSS.

ok end of random story. sometimes i really wonder why we put in our all, so much effort, into things we believe in, but which others nvr share our conviction. do we know why we give so much, yet receive so little? yet somehow, theres no regrets, and no turning back on wat we believe in. thats passion for u i guess, when ur really willing to give and not receive in return.

yupp. and lately i've been feeling that kind of rush of angst, like that built up emotions inside u that u can only vent by u noe, howling out in a war cry or sth. i duno. i tink i'm going mad, sth inside me trying to break out? haha. ok dont worry i'm perfectly normal i'm just incoherent and random and being a bullshit crapper.

baptism of fire, here i come. jiayou everyone!



the cynic spoke @ 9:17 PM

Tuesday, April 8, 2008
council results out today. quite alot of bad news ba. totally unexpected.

for those who got in, congrats to them. but i have more sympathy for those who didnt la. guess life is that shit unfair. i see ppl putting their 110% into council and they dont get elected in the end. then got ppl riding on their team's campaign and breezing through. totally sucks pls.

and then there are complete asses who shouldnt have been on the nominees list at all getting in. u noe, those who were in RIPB last time and didnt do a single shit? and then those who would really have worked their asses off dont get in. wth la.

but i really tink those who didnt make it through would have come out stronger from this experience ba. and i really admire them putting everything aside just for this. yeah. cos i know i wouldnt have been able to do it. jiayou ba!

on a lighter note, i'm totally satisfied with my PW grp. though i didnt have any suspense cos i was the first name in the first grp to be called. -.- but hongye joy and tew = 3 ppl i can talk to and work with so i guess i shld be damn happy. hoho.

and i realise there are some things which havent been appearing here. oh wells. shall find time to write another day.



the cynic spoke @ 11:17 PM

Monday, April 7, 2008
had a bad start to the day. woke up with a tight and slightly strained left calf (totally duno why liddat. slping posture maybe?) yah and had NAPFA later. then when going to sch opened the door to find the neighbour's cat shitting outside the door YET AGAIN. damn bloody smelly can. zzzz...

ok then sch was uneventful. had NAPFA 5 stations in the afternoon. was totally prepared to fail can. (SBJ anyone?) anw the first time i passed SBJ this year was last week. hahaha. so i was like no pressure prepared to fail anw. then first jump i jumped a bloody 218. LOL. beat my personal best by over 8 cm at one shot. so dumb must continue to improve and get silver next year cos i dont wanna serve another 2 months extra BMT when i dont need it. zzzz...

then after sch played bball then went for council voting. stupid system crashed on fri so had to vote today. then went library. study with zhengjun eileen nat jiahui yiusum and another girl from shooting. jiahui left early and missed out on all the fun afterwards as muquan became a bitch and foul things started coming out of his mouth. like eileen said, must ji1 some kou3 de2. so i guess i shall not bitch so much next time. though i conclude its really quite scary to piss me off/offend me. lolololol.

so now, my left calf aches even more. sian. hopefully by tmr will be better. bye world.



the cynic spoke @ 11:27 PM

Thursday, April 3, 2008
really quite tired of ppl asking me to vote for them. like even those i've NEVER EVER talked to on msn can come up and ask. i really hope ur can read between the lines of my answers. seriously. basically i've decided on who i wanna vote alr (decided long ago), and yes i dont like to give any false impressions. didnt want to take pencil today, cos feel really paiseh la, take liao dont vote. -.-

the best thing is that someone i nvr talked to before sent me a msg at 9.11pm. i noe him la, but really i duno how he noe me. he probably doesnt, and got my number from somewhere, somehow. "they have their means la", like wat my bro said. =/ scary.

but then its really fun pulling votes for ur frens. haha. sat at amphi with cheryl and amelia before i went home. yijun joined us later. was basically calling everyone i knew who walked past and asking them to vote for the 3 of them. hahaha. ya i've been actively asking ppl to vote for the 3 of them plus eileen and weiting. the powers of knowing so many undecided ppl. i might have been more effective in pulling votes than some of the council nominees themselves pls. hahaha.

yeah and had a long chat with tew today as well. quite surprising how our thoughts on so many issues are that similar. hmmm.. more thoughts another day perhaps?

and now for the classic from my bro. he asked me to say this in reply to anyone else who asked me to vote for them: "i will vote for u.......over my dead body!"

LOL. yeah i am SO tempted to say that. haha anw yes GOOD LUCK ALL THE BEST AND JIAYOUU TO ALL WHOM I AM SUPPORTING!! =DDD



the cynic spoke @ 11:30 PM

Wednesday, April 2, 2008
DISCLAIMER: I HAVE NO INTENTION OF JOINING FRISBEE. i tink there has been some confusion over wat i wrote 2 posts ago (yiusum became the 2nd person to ask me today after oonick). i only intend to write an article on frisbee for zaobao, and i certainly dont have to join frisbee to do that. hahaha.

watched council nominees giving their speeches today. to be honest i wasnt really paying that much attention to wat they were saying la, since i'm more or less settled over who to vote for. and wasnt really entertained anw. ISH so hot, was really tempted to ask why the air-con wasnt switched on when questions were open to the floor. -.-

yeah basically nth interesting until one girl ask Lnerd: "will u break up with me when u get into council?" WHICH IS WOW TOTALLY JING4 BAO4! LOL!! ok which is anyhow ask one, cos it has been confirmed that Lnerd doesnt have a gf. ><

stoned around in sch after sch. with eileen weiting zhihao and their grp of frens running for council. the effort ppl put in really is admirable la i must say. haha. eileen and kevin quah was telling me how its very weird that everyone is going around "making frens" to get votes, and guess eileen was very uncomfortable with it la. haha. well i guess everyone is doing it, and its really a part of elections la. i guess nobody likes doing it, but its sth which has to be done. so yeah, certain things u must do when u run for council.

spent quite a long time chatting with zhihao too. haha. great to know all is rather fine and well.

anw heres some advertising:

pls vote for, in no particular order:
amelia tan
eileen tan
tan weiting
cheryl ng
cai yijun
law jiahao
hsiang chengwen

LOL hmm ok i didnt say i will advertise for anyone else le. hoho. to all u ppl out there who duno who to vote for, just ask me i can sms u the complete list of names whereby u can simply vote accordingly. saves u alot of trouble doesnt it? totally. hahaha!



the cynic spoke @ 9:57 PM

Tuesday, April 1, 2008
i realised i forgot to add that the sky looks like this now. =DDD

haha. everyone has to go through certain things in life ba. wats impt is that we learn from those experiences. as we've heard countless times alr.

and to all my friends who are busy like hell. jiayou with watever u r doing! we'll all pull through de! =DDD



the cynic spoke @ 10:45 PM