Monday, March 31, 2008
lol this shall be a long and random post, cos i have nth else to do now anw. LOL.

anw i am really very freaked out by how time passes so quickly. seriously if theres a person called time he'll be able to run 2.4 in 24 seconds and shuttle run in 40 milliseconds. ok thats not the point. the point is that time passes very quickly. (ya like u havent seen that from the first sentence..)

shall start from fri. since somehow thats where i can rmbr until. blame it on ageing. 17 alr leh. memory getting from bad to worse.. =(( LOL ok. so wat did i do on fri. i got 4 blue slips to pon sch. LOL. no la u only need 2 the other 2 was for tew who somehow was lazy enough not to take herself. haha. and i didnt pon sch. i needed to leave sch early to go for pre-u scholarship interviews. and tew was sick. =/ gastric flu ouch ouch good thing now better le haha.

went off at 11.40. went canteen eat lunch and screw around with chengwen. hahaha. not bad eh i was asked for my opinion on his campaign hohoho. yah then off i went.

which is i ended up reaching 10 mins later than when i was supposed to reach. haha. luckily we were supposed to reach 30 mins before the interview so i wasnt late. am lazy to talk about the interview le. after the countless recounts. hmmm.. i will just say that i was lucky that it was 3 kind old men who interviewed me. then the only tip i can have is to show tons of humility cos really, being elitist and arrogant isnt really going to win over kind old men. and yah i was really really lucky cos it was the first slot after lunch and the kind old men were in good mood. (common sense, stomach filled = happy. a hungry man is an angry man, get it?)

anw if u r really that interested to know, u can ask the following ppl: nat, germaine, yiusum, xiping, jiamin, lixue, xuchang krystal, my mom. pls find me only if ur really desperate thx.

yah went back to sch. cos didnt want to go home early and do nth. got back in time for the end of PW. LOL. stoned around with shiao. did abit of catching up. hahaha. yah then went home. -.-

sat. went sch to attempt some efficient/effective/high performance mugging/doing work/studying/watever term u have for it with yiusum and jiahui. totally funny. awhile after jiahui came she was complaining the place too hot. 2 hours later she started complaining that the place too cold hahaha. ended up binging on food and listening to them complain about the 7-11 woman. hahaha.

oh and saw many ppl working on their campaigns too. eileen and weiting, amelia and cheryl among others. hahaha. busyyy siaaaaa...

anw on the way out of sch had this funny mini convo with jiahui.

jiahui: "suans muquan continuously coupled with evil (LOL) laughter every 2 sentences like how i'm used to hearing from her everytime she talks to me."

me: "wa lao i didnt come to sch to get suanned by u la."

jiahui: "i also didnt come to sch to suan u lor. but i seriously cant help it. (continues laughing)"

zhengjun: "yah u have the 'come and suan me face'"

me: "WOW"

jiahui: "(in between continuous laughter) yah u and suchin very nice to suan"

me: "huh? (very confused cos suddenly suchin is mentioned"

LOL. there was more cause for laughter on the way to mrt but it shall not be elaborated on here. hahahahaha. i am totally being bullied man. HAHAHA. jkjk.

sunday had meeting. first thing i asked when i entered xiao room and saw jiamin there. "why is the room so smelly?" LOL. ok la she ate lunch there. which is i duno wat she ate. hoho. meeting started late. then everyone very quiet. =/ everyone take very long to warm up sia. but after warm up session the meeting becomes lively. got alot of damn creative ideas la zomg. me and xc were continuously laughing throughout the meeting (even though we're not supposed to ><) hahaha. really looking forward to jiuzhi heh.

today was a good day. hahaha. which is probably no more good days to enjoy le. every year the story is the same. at start of year there is alot of motivation to work hard. after one month all motivation and drive is lost and hardcore slacking kicks in. then good sense starts to prevail before everything becomes too late and its time to work hard again. normally good sense kicks in in sept. this year it has to kick in earlier. cos really alot of things are make or break alr. no more 2nd chances. no more opportunities for regrets. if u die u die and thats it. zzz.. ok so its time to really focus liao la. byebye better than good life. its been fun while it lasted. hahaha.

and its really good to have settled some targets. gives u sth to work towards. like wat article to write. have decided i shall write about frisbee ba. major competition in august which gives me more time and breathing space. ppl whom i noe in the cca (zhefei and oonick for a start), approachable ppl. yeah and its a low profile sports cca so theres reason for me to publicise haha. even though personally i dont really enjoy the sport much. but oh wells. there are always good causes to work for. haha. but then again. also not 100% confirmed la. just sth i have in mind...

anw the above has not been some april fools' joke in advanced. muquan has never been quite good at april fools' jokes. hahaha. and yah the holiday for rj tmr to celebrate excellent A lvl results is not some joke either. though the notion that we obtained "excellent" results might very well be... hahaha.

okay la everyone have a good month ahead! time to hit gear tmr. =)

OH AND I REALLY WANNA JOIN BRIDGE CLUB. SHIT SHLD HAVE JOINED AT START OF THE YEAR. ANYONE KNOWS WHETHER THEY STILL TAKING PPL? YONGHAN!! HELP MEEEE!!!!!



the cynic spoke @ 10:05 PM

Thursday, March 27, 2008
promises were never meant to be broken. neither were they ever meant to be fulfilled.

they were never meant to be made at all.

i guess that really sums things up. we make a hell lot of promises in our lives, but then on how many occasions do we ever fulfill them? there shld nvr be any guarantees in life. u cant even be 100% sure wats gonna happen the next day. so dont promise anything unless ur willing to go bald keeping it, lest more unhappiness is created.

seriously just tink thrice before u do anything. if thrice isnt enough, try tinking it through 10 times. cos if u screw up, nobody's going to be cleaning ur shit and wiping ur ass for u. if u wear diapers, good for u. if u dont better learn how to control urself. but spare some thought for those who cant even afford underwear and shorts. their shit is there for everyone to see. imagine if they get diarrhoea...

no need to read too much into the above. just some random thoughts. alot of shit has been happening lately. to ppl around me. good to see some happy endings though. this world certainly can do with more real ones, instead of those dumb fictional fairytale endings constantly generated by hollywood where the good things always happen to the good guys. lol. if only the world were that simple..

dont ask me why i'm so cynical. perhaps its the environment i've been in. all i know is, all the views on life i have now, they were formed by myself, and my experiences.

just be glad that, i now get fooled very easily.



the cynic spoke @ 9:33 PM

Tuesday, March 25, 2008
oh its week 2 alr? its week 2 going onto wednesday alr?

haha. nth much happening. almost late for sch ytd. yah even though sch started late. at first can reach early de. then dilly dally at home until LOL LATE LIAO. -.- mad rush to sch luckily managed to reach on time.

mondays are nice days. they have quickly transformed from most dread day to best day cos there are only 3 useful lessons before u go for PE. so the day ends very fast. if PE somehow manages not to kill u u can play bball after sch. and get owned by table tennis girls whose shooting totally doesnt match the shirts they wear (yah u noe girls who chop like wat, 60% of their shots wearing shirts with the "butterfly" logo on them?) LOL. they can throw in a few blocks too. scary..

then after the nicest day comes the 2nd worst day. bad enough after the break anw. u slp in maths lecture. as long as the lecturer doesnt keep u awake with "here in this cases"s. they keep u awake cos u laugh everytime she says them. unfortunately i didnt catch any today. until she couldnt hold it anymore and had it 3 times in one sentence. LOL. but i fell asleep after that until zhengjun raped me with his pen. -.-

then after that is econs lecture. wide awake after the nap in the previous lecture. then this lecturer is so slow it is impossible to follow. u cant slp. so u decide to do sightseeing in the LT instead and see half the LT asleep. LOL. after that is GP. no explanation needed.. haiz..

after sch ur brain needs oxygen so u yawn like wat 20+ times on ur way to the canteen and continue yawning like some retard when u've reached. LOL. sorry i tink i yawn way too much. even as i'm typing this i'm yawning.. zzzzz...

oh anw congrats to all who got into campaign for council. yah hopefully ppl r serious about it so that no bastards who dont deserve to be in get in. that'll be such a comforting thought.. -.-

footnote: stoning to death has been redefined. instead of the ancient art of getting stones thrown at u until u die, this time u get tied up and have 2 lecturers talk to u. eventually u will stone to death. as explained by zhengjun. LOL.



the cynic spoke @ 10:25 PM

Saturday, March 22, 2008
the sky starts out clear. in singapore, the sun makes its existence known to you. so the sky is especially clear. all is well. u see everything clearly.

u bask in the sun. and take it for granted. there are so many things which u can do and enjoy doing with the sun up there. u take it for granted that the sun will always be there for u. nth will change. u'll always be happy. perhaps u indulge too much in the sun. u get sunburnt. but after a while, u recover and continue to indulge in the sun. the sun is always there. cos the sun exists not only for u. it exists for a purpose. for everyone else. but u neglect that fact. u want the sun all to urself.

but the warmth, it causes water to evaporate, somehow. u arent aware that it happens, or rather, u are naive enough to tink that it wont happen. either way, its sth u dont want to happen. perhaps u could have done more to mitigate the effects, but u dont, cos u nvr gave urself a chance to do so. water vapour condenses high up in the sky, forming clouds. the process is slow sometimes, fast sometimes. but surely, clouds begin to form. the clouds accumulate, threatening to block out the sun. but the sun still shines. the sun is always as bright, no matter how many clouds there are.

but the clouds are relentless. they continue to form. and soon the sky becomes dark. the sun gets blocked out. soon, the sun can no longer be seen.

but the sun is persistent. it continues to shine through, not mindful of the dark clouds. black and white. as simple as that. but u can just see a shine of grey forming. but if u dont observe carefully, u'd tink there are no grey areas. but everything else, they still can be seen clearly.

u noe wats going to happen next. u wish it doesnt happen. but its inevitable. perhaps.

it starts to rain. no. it starts to pour. when the clouds are as dark as that, it doesnt rain. it pours. everything becomes dark, blur. ur vision is dimmed, wat u can see is limited. distorted as there isnt enough light, the light from the sun is gone.

u can choose to lock urself up at home. close all the windows. looking on as the rain pours down. choosing not to let it affect u. u can tell urself: "the sun will come back anw." so u can stay home.

otherwise, u can go out and brave the storm. with or without protection. with or without an umbrella. with or without protection. if the umbrella fails, just carry on without it. but rmbr, the ground is wet. if ur not careful, u can slip and fall. and hurt urself.

the person who stays at home laughs at the person who went out. he says hes stupid. but the person who goes out, eventually has the last laugh.

eventually, the rain stops. all is clear again. the difference being: the person who stayed home, he gets too comfortable, and doesnt feel like stepping out again. now, he doesnt even acknowledge the sun. but the person who went out to brave the storm, he gets to enjoy the sun again. hes out anw, too soaked to get home. he might have fallen a few times, but he managed to pick himself up again. this time, he basks in the sun again. he needs the sun to make him dry again, give him energy, make him radiant. and this time, he no longer takes the sun for granted. cos hes experienced how its like without the sun. it makes him treasure the sun even more.

it takes time for the rain to stop. just wait. go out if u have to. dont escape from the rain. its not worth it. rain is necessary. it washes away the dust, makes u see things in a whole new light after it has stopped. u'll noe whr u went wrong in the past. and u noe not to repeat ur mistakes in the future.

ur vision could be limited by rain, but u have to press on. for only then can u reveal wat really is in front of u. even if u fail, at least u tried, unlike the person who stayed at home, who didnt even give himself a chance to succeed.

the sun will always be there. it might rain again. slight drizzle. thunderstorm. but at least u noe wat to do. 雨过天晴. with time, everything will be fine again. its just a question of "how long?" but u noe u r willing to wait. dont ever take the sun for granted, or u will suffer the regret when u realise the sun is gone. because, the sun wont be there for u forever.

i duno why i wrote this post. but when i saw the sky in the first pic, it really struck me. cos, the world is never perfectly black and white.

its really scary how much difference a week can make. heck, its scary enough how much difference one moment can make, let alone an hour, a day, a week, a month, a year....... and if change is the only constant. then sometimes u really wish, that change, will allow things to change back.

it just stopped raining. and now i'm just waiting for the sun to appear again.



the cynic spoke @ 4:34 PM

Friday, March 21, 2008
我们也都别想太多了。=)



the cynic spoke @ 11:45 PM

today.. was a day to forget. the day after lunch anw. this shall not need any further elaboration. just feel.. the price of today's outing was too high (not in monetary terms). weird.. anw its probably really not a good idea to go about during public holidays ba. unless things are well planned.

after a mini break-up, went off to stone with qite xiping and wangguan. esplanade. ji-siao-ed the restaurants by sitting on the places and waiting to be chased off. LOL. at the 2nd bar the guy clever gave us menu leh . so we ordered sth. HAHA. cocktail. share with qite and xiping also can get face red within 5 mins. siao bo. stomach empty or sth. or liver too good le. LOL. yy joined us after faking to go home. hoho.

then was on the way home walking to mrt with xiping. walked past the "new york new york" restaurant. then she commented 2 dollar pool eh. lmao. so we went to play! which is we played 2 games and i lost both. 2nd one cos knock black ball in. -.-

and i really hoped i cleared the air ba. moving on. u have to move on too. =)



the cynic spoke @ 8:35 PM

Wednesday, March 19, 2008
today. the first word that came out of my mouth was a swear word. then i swore like nobody's business for the rest of the day.

thought i felt lousy enough in the morning. but now.. haiz haiz. "lousy" would be a severe understatement. when u figure how stupid u were, who u've hurt without actually intending to do so........

reality is always harsh. the truth always hurts..
but sometimes, u really wish that ppl will understand how important they r to u.



the cynic spoke @ 7:56 PM

Tuesday, March 18, 2008
first and foremost: happy birthday eileen tan! 17 years old liao, can be less blur and forgetful. haha. now u as old as me liao can stop calling me ahpek alr la! LOL. or else u wont get into council le.. hoho kidding. best of luck in all that u do! =DD

ok then so wat else was this post supposed to be about? hmm.. nth in particular. hahaha. i am just like, dead tired or sth. and brain is slow when i am tired. so i am slow. and my joints are aching. =/ the idea of skipping PE totally appeals to me nowwwwww. ahhhhhhhhhh....

ok this is random. i'm too shag to tink. byebye!



the cynic spoke @ 9:21 PM

Monday, March 17, 2008
back to sch. almost didnt want to wake up in the morning. again. even though we started sch later.. lololol.

uneventful day. before almost getting murdered in PE. hang 20 seconds then do 1 pull up and hang for another 20 seconds in that position? hang 10 seconds then do 1 pull up and repeat it 5 times? lol no thx sia i not that fit and strong. -.-

played bball after sch. am determined to get myself as tanned as last year or sth. so bloody hot still so keen to play. hoho. outdid myself by scoring 5 straight to bring the score from 6-0 to 6-5 in one of the matches. lmfao. stellar shooting for 2 min. then played and shot like shit the rest of the way. HOHO. there is a need to get more consistent.

this is damn sian. and i am damn damn damn tired omgggg. overexertion. =/ and still got like, alot of work left undone. hoho. well done man! time to, get down to more serious work. bye!



the cynic spoke @ 9:04 PM

Sunday, March 16, 2008
woke up 3 hours earlier than when i would usually wake up on sundays. to go attend some forum at jurong library. for BLYC de. haha. which is, i wasnt into the forum at all. has a total sense of wasting my time there while hearing a whole load of misleading stuff. pls just stop telling me all that nonsense about grades not being important bla bla bla.

at the end of the day we know they are important to a LARGE extent. and we do know we need things outside of grades. we know we need ppl skills and watever. aiya. we know grades arent everything. but when u take it out of context and come telling us grades arent important and totally hyping up the notion that grades REALLY arent important, then u've totally missed the point.

ok enough of ranting. moral of the story is: i was totally shag by the time i reached baoguan after listening to 1 and a half hours of crap. great to see everyone. =)

anw there was some story telling competition going on in meeting room. so we had to go up to 8th floor to hold meeting. which is not a good place to hold meeting. haha. camp review. then cut cake for qite. wahahaha. thx to lixue for baking the cakes! =DD

then 11th comm started its first meeting. vice-chair of new comm. honoured. haha. but ya the position only determines our responsibilities in the comm. everyone must actively contribute during meeting man. hoho. first meeting so i wont say much. sure will see improvement in the near future de ba. 11th comm must jiayou le. haha. everyone must cooperate with jiamin ok! and a big JIAYOU to lixue who is the new xulong grp leader! wahahaha. WE WILL SUPPORT YOU DE. GO XULONG!

yupp. last meeting for 10th comm le. will have to get used to not seeing the ppl regularly on sundays. haiz haiz. oh wells. we all have to move on i guess. and i was unusually at peace with myself when i went home today. even bordering on being happy. hmm. guess letting go, it really does wonders for ur emotions. havent felt that at peace with myself in a long time. yay the one week self-enlightenment is a success. whooooo.

lalala. sch starting tmr le. can see everyone again. =) but have to wake up early again. zzz...

and good luck to all the J2s taking ur blocks! yayayay jiayou jiayou jiayou!!! =DDD



the cynic spoke @ 9:59 PM

Saturday, March 15, 2008
finally finished wat i set out to do today. zzz...

been a boring day. consisting of staring at my bio tutorial and chatting with yiusum sporadically throughout the day. at irregular intervals. asking about work. hahaha.

tmr: got some youth club forum at jurong library. thank goodness its from 10-12 so i dont have to miss it. then after that its down to baoguan.

last meeting for 10th comm. last meeting for camp comm. first meeting for 11th comm.
new comm.
new beginning.
new faces.
new role.
new responsiblilities.
new challenges.
same old passion.
same old commitment.
same old SPH.

new chapter begins. tmr.



the cynic spoke @ 10:31 PM

Friday, March 14, 2008
class outing today. erm. wat to say. the outing sucked. but i enjoyed the company of the ppl there. does that make sense? haha. ya it does. its like studying with frens but the studying part didnt work out so it sucked but u enjoyed the company of ur frens. lololol.

practically forced myself out of bed at 7.30 in the morning. then forced myself not to go back to slp. hahaha. was supposed to meet at 10 at paya lebar. why? cos "This decision is made kindly by the 9 people that were online at 10:30pm on 11 March 2008..." LOL. i tink i was one of them? ya i wonder wat i voted for.. i just rmbr telling zhengjun that paya lebar is TOTALLY near marsiling...

met up with zhengjun nat and yiusum. we were like, 15-20 mins late? but it didnt matter if we were 1 hour late.. cos *ahem someone woke up damn late and held the bishan gang up by 1 hour. hoho. relax la we dont blame u. next time slp earlier la can? =DD

met up with yuling at paya lebar. we were like, on time! WOW. went to eat at singpost building. cos everyone too nice to be late and we skipped breakfast to be on time. LOL. hahaha. yah sat around and talked cock waiting for the bishan gang to arrive. then met up and somehow managed to make our way to east coast park. saw nic hsien along the way. hahaha. he lives around the area ba.

WHICH IS NO RAIN! HOHO. IT DIDNT RAIN ON THE 2 DAYS I DIDNT WANT IT TO RAIN. THEN THE REST OF THE DAYS ALL JUST FLOODED. LOLOLOL. ok i finished ranting. kicked some balls (no is just one soccer ball sorry. my mistake). then decided to go biking. ohh yay we managed to teach 2 ppl how to cycle! hahaha. yeah yeah yiusum and jiayun picked it up fast. hoho. nicole shall be worked on again another time. haha!

yah cycled for 2 hours. then germaine joined us. took a break before returning the bikes. attempted unsuccessfully to write on the sand. hmmm.. emo session on the beach failed. haha. so we decided to return the bikes. then joy and amanda wong abandoned us. hahahaha.

went back singpost eat lunch. met up with suchin and weiting. cut cake for yuling (birthday was ytd) and weiting (birthday is tmr). haha. nat (self-proclaimed likes to play with fire) was playing with the lighter. threatened to burn all sorts of things including paper (which he didnt, fortunately), metal cans (which he did. but was stopped), the furniture, the box of the cake, and the singpost building. LOL EXAGGERATION. but ya i tik he was going to light the thing with paper stuffed at the mouth. risky sia. potential ahem ahem....

zhengjun and germaine abandoned us. we decided to go cine. girls watch movie. guys play pool. yuling and yiusum watch us play pool. hahaha. went mrt station and jiayun abandoned us. so left: me victor nat sengchian viet weiting yiusum suchin nicole and yuling. reached cine. tics 10 bucks. bloody rip-off. so no movie. went up see pool. no tables. and we really didnt look as though we belonged there. so we tried our luck at cuppage (yuling abandoned us in the meantime), THEN FOUND OUT CUPPAGE POOL GONE LIAO. LOL!

ok totally scammed. in the end went PS. cos nat said: go PS starbucks stone. so we went. AND SAW OONICK. LOL. SO IN ONE DAY I SAW BOTH NICHOLAS'ES. LOLLLL. yah weiting suchin and yiusum abandoned us. so left: sengchian nat victor viet nicole and me. drank and talked cock. viet left cos he was ill. continued talking shit. then went home. in the meantime nat started feeling unwell too. LOL. gg.

anw i am totally sunburnt now for no reason. dont rmbr the sun being particularly meng3.. hmm.. but nat and sengchian even more fried than me. haha. had a great time la. but being the first official class outing, we definitely could have done with more ppl man. aiya. hope to see more ppl next time.



the cynic spoke @ 10:21 PM

Thursday, March 13, 2008
today! fun day. haha. went to woodlands civic to study with yiusum and zhengjun. which is we got study ok! haha.

anw morning is rain like some shit. lol. then i totally refused to use umbrella. so got there wet. -.- lol. zhengjun was there early to reserve seats. (ahem not allowed) ya like chao early? lol. i got there noon liao he morning reach le. then yiusum arrived abit later. that one also nvr use umbrella i tink. haha! tink alike siaaaaaaaa.

lol then she sit down awhile only zhengjun's fren came. name is kailun. kena bullied into helping us take care of our stuff when we went to eat lunch. so yiusum came, sat down, and we went to eat lunch. yay! kfc. hmm.. damn unhealthy. hahaha. ok but still nice nonetheless. better than MACS.

went back. did work. chatted. tried to do work. chatted again. about alot of funny stuff. got one point me and zhengjun totally laugh until cannot stop. stomach pain like siao. -.-

ok la evening went suntec with zhengjun watch 10000 BC. haha. bro's treat. haha. watched with him and sf. got 4 tics leh, so zhengjun had the erm, fortune of getting the last tic. haha! anw the movie was... abit lame la. another typical hollywood production (rolls eyes). nth special. yupp. just that after u watch the movie u can point to anything and say "10000 BC" and start laughing ur ass off. ><

then damn funny when going home. i was telling zhengjun "eh take to marina bay first la, got seats." so we went down one level. then saw bro there waiting for the same train. HAHA. GREAT MINDS TINK ALIKE LOLOLOLOL.

class outing tmr. yay we rock we going ECP. and the weather forecast is TOTALLY CAUSE FOR OPTIMISM. THUNDERSTORMS EVERYWHERE. LOL. ok. we'll see wat we can do to salvage sth tmr. haha. HOPE IT DOESNT RAIN. GOODNIGHT WORLD! =D



the cynic spoke @ 11:06 PM

Wednesday, March 12, 2008
and a while back, u asked me a question. that time, i told u the truth.

now, i dont even know whether it was the truth, or whether i just told u wat u wanted to hear.

cos the truth, just doesnt seem to apply now.



the cynic spoke @ 10:32 PM

2 parties.

its simple.

when both make an effort, there is progress.

when only one makes an effort, nothing will happen. unless the other one starts too.

when both dont make any effort, regression ensues.



the cynic spoke @ 10:26 PM

this post was supposed to be about sth else.

but i gave up writing.



the cynic spoke @ 9:21 PM

Tuesday, March 11, 2008
finally realised. the main thing which has been holding me back all along is insecurity.

hmmm.. insecurity. its gonna seriously undo me if i dont do sth about it. hahaha.

anw. after being stuck in the same position for 3 months. it is now time to move on. haha. yupp. let go and move on.

fortunately i nvr got into reverse gear.

and now i have to discover more about myself. =)



the cynic spoke @ 11:05 PM

Monday, March 10, 2008
just felt that. i really wanna thank all the xu long members who turned up for the camp. especially the new members. ur enthusiasm is extremely infectious. haha. THANKS FOR BREATHING NEW LIFE INTO THE GROUP! =DDD





the cynic spoke @ 10:53 PM

camp was extremely fulfilling. fulfilling to see everyone having so much fun. fulfilling to see all the grp members being so enthu. and really contented to know that watever u dont have, u always have a grp of extremely close friends u can count on. if not for being so occupied and tired, would have preferred to spend more time quality time with everyone ba. haha.

day 0 was spent preparing stuff among other things. after preparations had a damn fun time with qite lixue and aonan editing the script. hahaha. came up with damn funny/lame stuff until everyone tired and brain block liao. then went to chat with jiahui jie and erm, alot of ppl. haha. didnt talk much la. was more interested in listening to them.

day 1 was just feng1! hahaha. ok morning abit leng2 chang3, especially during icebreakers. everyone needs time to warm up with each other la. but its quite interesting how last time the guys in xulong were practically non-existent (like less than 5?). then now got a substantial amount of guys liao and they all trying their best. haha. the girls are much quieter la, but can see they actually very enthu also (play games is totally hiong haha!)

then morning lecture. went off to answer nature's extremely urgent BIG call. LOL. came back and played some game to guess sportsppl. hahaha. i tink this year's lecture was extremely good la. very engaging and interesting. but is listen before le. ended up chatting with xiping outside along the corridor. we were like chao worried it would rain (ya at one point felt some tiny drops or sth LOL). ok luckily it didnt rain EVEN THE SKY IS GOOD TO US. haha.

had teach wo3 men2 de4 ge1 session after lunch. didnt take part cos was helping set up kangle. quite yi2 han4 leh. thought it was very meaningful. and everyone was singing. yeah! kidnap after that. i half screwed up being station master la. hahahaha. totally confused myself. at that point wished i had a few more hands. cos i was juggling 3 pieces of paper LOL. ok i thot i screwed kangle up luckily settled down later on. haha. then after kidnap was water games. which is everyone got wet not cos of the water games themselves. but cos after the games ppl took the spare water in the pails and just luan4 pour at each other LOL.

xiping complained she wasnt wet. after xu played xuan for the first time she was soaking wet. cos i poured a container of water on her. then the pail not really enough water la. after 2nd game she was wet from head to toe cos i poured almost half a pail of water from her head down LOL. ok la i poured the rest over myself for thrills so we're even haha.

after games was rehearsal for wan3 hui4. special mention to hanjie for writing the script which was really good. anw i realised the grp members are seriously damn funny. hahaha. they just freestyle the rehearsal and added funny lines by themselves hahahaha damn funnnn.

wanhui! XIANGLONG'S PERFORMANCE WAS CJWD FUNNY DAO BAO! me and mincong was laughing like shit mad i tink everyone thought we were crazy HAHAHAHA. LOLOLOL! song session wasnt long and high enough though. somehow i felt past wan3 hui4s were better la. more qi4 fen4. this year like sth lacking. hmmm...

proceeded to stone at night. oso duno why. haiz. come to tink of it, the time could have been much better used la. zzzzz.. nvm nvm. at least i got a good laugh from xiping showing me mas selamat's many faces on her phone, and those were from talkingcock lmao lmao.

slept with body on the floor woke up with a painful ass haha. i sat through the yang2 zi3 interview. no actually i stood through it cos there werent enough chairs so the exco members were standing in a row behind. haha. in the end nvr get his signature cos his hand injured. got signatures of the tay twins instead. (my schmates some more. hahahaha.) didnt write article. talked cock with xiping before wangguan yy and jiamin joined us and we started guessing songs.

survivor game was funny. guess wangguan made an extremely entertaining hellmaster hahaha. then camp came to a close. nishuai won 1st in article writing. yay for her! =D anw final results were xuanlong and xulong tied for first. again. just like tiyuri. lmao so coincidental can. must be all fate or sth. so now the 2 events both got 2 champs. hahaha.

sang wo3 men2 de4 ge1 for the last time before breaking camp. somehow got the mike then started singing. emotional eh. the moment i started singing everything start coming out liao. by the 4th line cannot control le i just started crying like some sai4. its really not sad or anything la. i guess i was just extremely touched by everything, and yah the song is really touching. or maybe it was a let out of 3 months of emotions stored in my heart. cry cry cry. wangguan is just dont want to take the mike from me LOL. -.-

everyone very emotional la.. mincong cried. he started earlier than me can. jiamin and xiaohua went female dorm to cry. xuchang cried. xiping was starting to cry. omg. TOUCHING.

yeah. ate the snacks. took pics. break camp. debrief. went to white sands to eat with lixue aonan qite jiamin huanghua xiaohua mincong xiping and nishuai. HK cafe. did alot of crazy stuff and laughed like siao. chatted until very late. spent 3 very happy hours with them la. haha. glad everything ended on a good note. more pics next time!

ok thats all for now. camp was good. looking forward to next year when i guess i'll really really be able to enjoy it le. wahahaha. more thoughts at a later time. perhaps this coming sunday ba..



the cynic spoke @ 4:35 PM

Friday, March 7, 2008
havent blogged seriously here in a long time. haha. even the last post was not really my post. amanda tew (mention u liao LOL) was like: "can u pls go and update ur blog?" on wed during bio. hahaha.

sch hols started ytd for us. thats 2 days earlier than everyone else. lol. many things have happened since cny which i havent blogged about. haha. i guess i just got tired of giving a summary of my life. then there were those thoughts which cannot appear on-screen. so many things u wanna say, but those things are exactly the things which you know cannot be announced to the world.

life has been eventful thus far. certainly been more interesting and much less boring than previous years. maybe its the new found freedom of entering a new sch. but i've really broken free of many things which used to hold me back. and well, just really enjoy the company of frens now. though more than once in a while i'll just feel like being alone. eccentricity. =/

and its like the first time i'm so occupied for the hols in a loooong time. and its even before the hols started haha. past hols have just been... boring! spent stoning and sleeping and wasting the time away at home. haha.

anw i guess i'm just glad and contented with wat i have now. wat makes ppl unhappy is, we always want more. i've seen so many cases of ppl not being contented and well, just heaping loads on themselves. i guess its really good to step back and take a good look at the lot u have and just feel happy about it.

the class has been nice as well. been spending alot of quality time with the class (or elements of the class haha). its really nice to see most of the ppl making an effort and try to do their part for the class. though i guess, we're all still trying to figure out how to communicate with each other. and communication breakdown can be sth u really wish will nvr happen. trust me, its damn scary. =/

anw will be going off to titong camp in 2 hours time! haha. after close to 3 months of meetings/11 sundays the camp is finally here le! which is not finally. cos its really really fast. really seems like ytd when we held our first meeting on nov 18. everyone has been putting in their all for the camp. over the next 2 days and we'll know that it's all worth it. yeah yeah yeah. camp comm must jiayou jiayou for camp and make this camp a blast! =D

yeah i am intent on really having fun during the camp. anything else that happens in the future, well will try not to tink about them. haha.

okie thats all from me. shall try to find time to blog about other stuff which have been happening. enjoy the hols everyone! =D



the cynic spoke @ 3:14 PM

Monday, March 3, 2008
十八年以后
十八年以后，世界会是怎样的？
体通还会存在吗？
我相信会吧？
今天。。。是营前的最后一次会议，我告诉嘉惠姐。这是最后一次会议。。。嘉惠姐说，后个星期才是。。。可是，后个星期，就是十一届的第一个会议了。。。“嘉惠姐，可以extend我么的卡吗？。。。到十八年以后。。。”
“十八年？。。。什么？。。。然后带你的孩子回来报馆har?”
“对。。。我会跟我的孩子说，这是嘉惠姐”
“还嘉惠姐。。。到时候。。。是。。。嘉惠婆lo!”
可爱吧？
我们体通的人就是那么的好玩。。。
十八年以后，我们是否还会跟彼此有联系？
十八年以后，我是否还会跟我的孩子们说。。。我以前是通讯员。。。
十八年以后，我的手机里，还会有嘉惠姐，晓华，倪帅，嘉敏，穆诠，旭昌，漆特，淑涵，等等等的手机号码吗？

我不知道。。。十八年以后。。。那是多么久的时候啊！。。。说长不长。。。我今年走到了生命的第一个十八年。。。对父母来说。。。“wa。。。这么快！。。。十八年了。。。当初还是小小的小不点。。。”

对。。。生命中。。。有好几个十八年。。。但是。。。会有多少个？
一个人活到七十岁。。。他顶多有三个多一点的十八年。。。那是少之又少。。。

我们现在根本不会知道我们十八年以后。。。到底还会不会记得对方。。。
但是我很肯定地说。。。至少。。。你们在我心里都曾留下美好的回忆。。。
可能。。。我十八年以后。。。心里会回忆“那个叫什么昌的。。。什么帅的。。。什么诠。。。什么特。。。什么涵。。。都曾经是我的好朋友。。。”
可能。。。我十八年以后。。。心里会想“那个以前叫什么敏。。。叫什么华的。。。是我的ruan high党！”

敏骢

above post courtesy of mincong. very touching.

ytd was the last meeting before camp. 2nd last meeting for 10 jie.

2 months ago i was an emo wreck. i asked jiamin: "why must all good things come to an end?"
jiamin replied: "if they dont come to an end, we'll nvr know how good they were."

ytd jiamin asked my same qn. i answered her same ans.

but who ever wants it to end?



the cynic spoke @ 10:15 PM