Thursday, February 28, 2008
为什么我们这么喜欢躲避？



the cynic spoke @ 11:08 PM

Sunday, February 24, 2008
and heres a shout-out to seng chian.

been great knowing u, and better smacking ur stomach everyday. hahaha! u'll forever be a part of the class ba. haha. so be sure to join us if we have any activities k!

and really hope u'll fit in well in njc. yupp. studies are very impt too, especially these 2 years. anw ur house so near the sch u can crash anytime la. wahahaha. and we'd love to crash ur house too. dont tink jiahui has gotten her fix of mahjong yet. lol!

hmm yupp. all the best in ur new sch k! we'll miss u! =))))))))



the cynic spoke @ 9:36 PM

went to baoguan today some distraught and emotionally unstable person today. lol. i really thought i might just screw up pre camp briefing and let xiping jiahui jie and everyone else down or sth. luckily i didnt.

haha yupp anw i'm fine now le. thanks to all who asked, even though ur didnt get an answer. haha. i guess i still keep many things to myself ba. and really the focus of today wasnt me, so i guess i was better off being left alone.

as to why i'm liddat. i guess its all the trivial things being summed up and becoming a burden ba. all the sad things which have been happening around took its toll. yeah u know that snowballing effect. and these 4 days have really been a rollercoaster ride of emotions for me. the good thing being i managed not to fall off the rollercoaster. haha. yupp. and today i got 4 days worth of unhappiness and insecurity off my chest. and well, its been really tiring ba. zzzz..

anw really appreciated everyone's concern (again). haha. thx to mincong jiamin xiping xuchang lixue aonan xiaohua zongjun zhenan. thx to wangguan for counselling me, yy for asking me not to tink so much, and nishuai for spending so much time trying to get me to talk. =)))

anw pre-camp briefing was okay i guess. though for the first time in 2 years i didnt manage to get everyone's names. oops. haha. shall try harder during camp ba. and the new members are really quite enthu. and there are alot of new members. which means alot of enthu members. haha! hope this keeps up. =)

yupp. 2 more weeks to camp le! camp comm must jiayou jiayou jiayou! =DDD



the cynic spoke @ 9:18 PM

Friday, February 22, 2008
i'm just feeling very empty at the moment. very very empty.

with that strong tinge of bitterness. bitter at circumstances. bitter at possibilities.

bitter at impossibilities.

i wonder when i'll really get over it and move on.



the cynic spoke @ 11:01 PM

Thursday, February 21, 2008
i've had enough of inspirational stories.

cos in the end, everything around u will still screw up.

bad things happen to everyone around u.

everyone will be sad in the end.

nothing good ever happens.

anything good that happens is all just a bloody facade.

and inspirational stories dont help. they dont make a bloody difference.

they only serve to rub salt into the wound.



the cynic spoke @ 8:40 PM

Wednesday, February 20, 2008
如果我晓得我为何那么在意的话，我很有可能早就不在意了......



the cynic spoke @ 10:35 PM

appeal results out tmr. rj better give zhengjun and sengchian a call. betterbetterbetter. mustmustmust. SCREW LA JUST LET THEM STAY. why break so many hearts? :(((

O2 tmr. am not very enthu about it to tell the truth. the only good thing is we get to skip lessons. lol.

whole lot of ppl came back today. haha. everyone damn happy to see them back. weiting was like "omg!" then jumping jumping when she saw sengchian. haha. i guess yuling is rite ba. i really like our class the way it is. i really hope everyone stays. and deep down i secretly dont want anyone else to join. (besides a certain suchin who's changing subject combi back haha). but then again the class size is so small its highly unlikely there'll be no newcomers.

oh wells. BEST OF LUCK TO THOSE WHO ARE APPEALING. especially zhengjun shengchian cassia and qiansheng. hmm. and everyone else ba.



the cynic spoke @ 8:53 PM

最后，我还是在等。

不知道在等什么。等一个不会发生的事情？等一个没结局的故事？

沉默的等奇迹？

从来没那么有耐心地等过。

有时，等待不是件坏事，要等的人的心态。




the cynic spoke @ 8:25 PM

Tuesday, February 19, 2008
and today was really a sad day for another reason. seng chian and zhengjun werent posted back to rj.

selection process is quite screwed up we highly suspect it is random cos zhengjun scored the same/better as other ppl and couldnt stay. zzz..

anw everyone is sad. tmr there will be 4 guys and 17 girls in the class. the sch better allow them to come back. and more importantly come back and be in the same class as us.



the cynic spoke @ 9:28 PM

ok i really fell sick. LOL. basically the next 3 days after going to charles' house i've been having a constant headache culminating in today's "i feel like dying" experience. LOL. actually ytd got see doctor but somehow it became worse after i ate medicine LOL.

ok la i knew i shldnt have gone to sch when i woke up one hour earlier than usual feeling like total shit. zzz.. but i had no fever. so i figured i could survive the whole day.

turns out i figured wrong LOL. my nose like some tap liddat cannot stop leaking. then i'm breathing out hot air siao damn uncomfortable. so i was in a half-conscious state for the first 3 periods until break. then break i decided i was really damn suay for the day. PORRIDGE GOT SOLD OUT AT THE PERSON IN FRONT OF ME IN THE QUEUE. WTH. 11AM NIA LEH. BASKET. so i was damn pissed off and vented out my frustrations by eating prata.

HAHA. PRATA. and the doctor asked me to avoid fried food LOL. anw i tink everyone thought i was crazy or sth. huimin was trying to psycho me to exchange food with her. haha. then in the end she only had veggies to offer cos i couldnt eat the fried chicken. yiusum asked me take baked beans. in the end i ate my prata. haha.

anw the condition took a turn for the worse during break. lol. by this time i was zombie-like. then everyone asked me to go home. ok la i was seriously considering going home. but come sch liao alr half the day passed, might as well go for the other half. and got bio quiz at end of the day which i dont want to re-take. so i decided against going home.

amanda tew was like: "eh u go home la. i'm feeling sorry for u."
me: "nvm la u can continue feeling sorry for me."

LOL. so for the rest of the day i was un-conscious. the only conscious thing i did was to blow my nose. non-stop. i used up 5 packs of tissue today. 2 mine. 2 courtesy of victor. the last one courtesy of nat. haha. anw i'm fine now le ba. come home pop 2 panadol plus the medicine from doctor and drank some duno wat thing then go slp. now headache is gone. fever is gone. hope things stay this way.

anw thx to all who showed concern and thx to victor for the sweater. would have died without it. of cos the tissue as well. haha. really appreciate it. =)



the cynic spoke @ 8:31 PM

Monday, February 18, 2008
posting out tmr le.

hope everyone stays/goes whr they want! =D



the cynic spoke @ 9:28 PM

Sunday, February 17, 2008
i just got home from charles' aunt's house.

i have 3 ulcers in my mouth. i'm quite sure i will get sore throat. i tink i might get fever.

i have alot of work left undone.

life is fun man! lol!



the cynic spoke @ 12:52 AM

Wednesday, February 13, 2008





the cynic spoke @ 10:30 PM

Monday, February 11, 2008
self control has been such a distant term to me lately. that restraint carefully built up over 2 years all wearing away.

or maybe. wat occured over the past 2 years was actually self-induced anaesthesia.

theres only that thin line dividing self restraint and numbing ur heart out.



the cynic spoke @ 10:50 PM

Sunday, February 10, 2008
so fast so fast. more than one month of the new year pass liao. chinese new year over liao. WHY TIME PASS SO FAST. ayeeee. suddenly dont feel like growing up. haiz haiz.

it really seems like ytd when camp comm first started meeting. now left one more meeting before pre camp liao. which means pre camp is in 2 weeks time. after that. one more meeting to camp. then march hols liao. camp will be the best 2 days of my march hols. then one more meeting, and just like that, 10 jie wont be meeting anymore liao. the very notion on 10 jie not meeting anymore makes me.. damn sad. haiz haiz HAIZ.

if time had ears and skin, i'll slap time and tell time not to travel so fast. zzzzz....



the cynic spoke @ 10:46 PM

Saturday, February 9, 2008
Wow i'm currently blogging from mincong's house now wahaha. Not from his com, i'm blogging on my phone using wifi LOL.

Haha we're currently singing k after dinner. Lalala. There's me nishuai jiamin xiping wangguan and qite here!

Was playing mahjong just now. Lucky or sth won 2 games with 3 and 4 tai2 woots! Dinner was great mincong shld just open restaurant or sth cos i was last to leave the dinner table finishing up the meat in the bak kut teh.

Zomg left one more day then break end le. No more waking up late in the mornings le! -.-

Hi! This is justina muquan's friend. he's singing yiluxiangbei now lol!



the cynic spoke @ 6:49 PM

Thursday, February 7, 2008
happy chinese new year everyone! hope ur have a good year ahead! wahaha.

i am currently taking a break from playing msn games with eileen. while shou3 sui4-ing. haha!

"hahah people play tong xiao mahjong we play tong xiao msn games ><" -eileen. LOL!



the cynic spoke @ 1:51 AM

Wednesday, February 6, 2008
just under 3 hours to chinese new year le!

hope everyone had a good reunion dinner! (i'm damn full now LOL)



the cynic spoke @ 9:14 PM

ytd was great fun! ok la went to sch in the morning to see quite a crowd in front of the canteen. all looking at the board displaying the list of ppl who got shortlisted for interviews for council. not bad leh all the ppl i noe who wanted to run got in. but then hor, i siao siao saw my name there la! LOL guai lan.

anw i had already made the decision long ago not to run for council le la. cos it'll just totally clash with my zaobao commitments. haha. wonder who nominated me. paiseh ah. LOL. i noe mr. ng yongsheng did. then nvr nominate eileen. LOL. -.-

haha. after the long drag of sch, class went to LAO1 YU2 SHENG1!

monday after sch was stoning with class at canteen. then jiahui was saying "lets do sth as a class for cny!" then i was like "lao1 yu2 sheng1!". muahaha then we just called seng chian and he agreed to get it prepared!

damn cool la. he got EVERYTHING done. from yu2 sheng1 to plates to tray to chopsticks. eh u rock. wahaha. ok so anw we just luan4 set up with our limited knowledge.





the cynic spoke @ 7:30 PM

Sunday, February 3, 2008
once again i am extremely distracted and above all, restless.

my attention span is short, and i'm very incoherent. and i got this urge to do sth, i feel that i shld/need to/must do it, but the problem is i duno wat exactly it is that i want/need/must do.

and i was just tinking about all the diff ppl, how some ppl can be.. well, them. and why there are ppl who talk about and do the exact opposite things. how come we are wat we are, and how come we do wat we do.

and how come we always dont do wat we want to do/wat we know we need to do.

zzzzzz....



the cynic spoke @ 8:10 PM

blogger screwed up on me so i couldnt blog ytd! so i shall blog now. lololol.

spend most of ytd at j8. spent a grand total of under an hour at YOUth got heart which is some event organized by RJ interact showcasing alot of VWOs. went down with class to decide which CIP to do lol.

for once i was the earliest for an outing LOL (i reached 10 mins early ok!). ya then spent like 20 mins to half an hour waiting hoho. went pizza hut to eat. i tink we r chao funny cos i tink alot of ppl wanted to go pasta to eat but no one said so. then sit down at pizza hut liao everyone start asking why nvr go pasta eat. lol!

split into 2 tables and i was with weiting germaine hongye and huirong. victor came late, so no share in our pizza. which is we waited like chao long for the pizza cos the woman got our order wrong. apparently it was not the first time she got the order wrong liao. but anw we decided to change our order so we waited like half an hour more than the other table LMAO. hongye was complaining like DAMN LOUDLY i started to worry if i could step into that pizza hut to eat again. haha.

went up to open area after lunch. the fair not bad la. interact got like chao lot of members doing publicity for them la. haha. anw we decided to do for Singapore Children's Society after intitally wanting to help ACRES. i tink organizing activities for kids shld be quite fun ba. haha.

went arcade to throw money afterward. LOL. it is really throw money la u play play play until u forget how much u spent. shooting hoops was disastrous i tink i'll stick to the real thing. daytona was chao funny like 7 ppl race together. haha. went back to visit nicole at the fair and was damn amused by yiusum who was continuously exclaiming that nicole is "damn cute!" HAHA!

then me viet yiusum victor zhengjun nat yuling and hongye went to coffee bean to stone. stone and talk cock la. haha. there were attempts to gao3 scandals out then we realised the relationships would be really really complicated LOL. nicole and seng chian joined us afterwards. zhengjun and hongye left early.

then the rest of the time was spent loitering around/listening to nicole asking us not to go so early/watching seng chian eat/watching victor emo/playing retarded games. ok la had a good time with the peeps haha. we shld really organize sth after Take 5. wooot.

ok now for photos:





the cynic spoke @ 4:29 PM

Friday, February 1, 2008
1 month into the new year, i have come to realise/know/insert ur own verb:

1. who, besides my family, i care most about.
2. i've met the nice ppl in rjc.
3. i can really work when i want to. but how long it lasts is another matter.
4. i really like the tan i'm getting back.
5. how much ppl can change, for better or worse.
6. maths lectures/tutorials are the most boring lessons. they are worse than gp. the most fun/exciting/interesting thing about maths lectures shall be ponning them, or how to pon them for that matter. LOL! or maybe wat happens after u pon them, especially if ur caught. -.-
7. ppl who are getting very long service awards in schs shld just quit and stop teaching. LOL!
8. how free i am.
9. how little time i spend at home, even though i am very free. which is damn sad.
10. i should spend more time at home.
11. i'm not as wonderful as ppl make me out to be.
12. i'm not as capable as i tink i am.

haha. this list shall get longer throughout the year ba. and i really tink i shld stop behaving like the spoilt brat i've been behaving as for the past 16 years at home. wat the shit. i need to curb that stupid dumb foul temper of mine and act my age. -.-

ya maybe someone shld stay beside me and slap me to remind me for the rest of the year. zzzz...
goh muquan u need to be more sensible. stop being a fucker. or else u can just go get slapped everyday.



the cynic spoke @ 9:38 PM

had NAPFA trials ytd. lets just say, it was really tiring. haha. 2.4 was like sime sai4 i guess, cos i ran even slower than wat i ran on the stupid ri field last year, which was bloody slow enough. totally sian diao. i really need to go and train sia. dots. legs not strong enough run until ache like shit. .....

pull-ups were better. i pulled 4. could have pulled more i guess. maybe the water lost through running made me lighter or sth. cos i rmbr i couldnt pull that much at the start of the year. ok la i guess i can pull de. then SBJ was a pleasant surprise. pleasant surprise cos i was taken aback by my score. even if it was still fail. but it gives me sth to work towards la. i guess i can pass de. wahaha.

after sch gone mad went to play bball. as if not tired enough from pe liao but heck care la. quite guo4 yin3 lor. haha. at first supposed to play with the guys from class but in the end alot of ppl joined and we played half court 4 on 5. i was on the 5. anw ya quite fun la with the highlight of the match being me rejecting viet aka 24 cm taller than me. HAHA. YA I BLOCKED HIS SHOT LMFAO! dont worry i didnt plan that i was very shocked also. -.- dont bet on me repeating this kind of stuff again.

after that ppl left we continued playing 3 on 3. zhengjun was pwning with fadeaways. >< sian if i can jump higher i'll be able to do much more stuff. shld insert springs in my shoes or sth. LOL.

anw went to baoguan after that. jiamin and xiaohua were alr there doing huixun. so me and nishuai plus the 2 of them were chatting. then wangguan came, xiaohua left and we went to eat dinner. sph was having some beach party outside the cafe la lmao. which is i tink everyone quite tempted to kope a few beers to drink HAHA. saw someone familiar (the reporter i met when selling lanterns last year, she waved at me!)

after dinner went back xiao room. talked alot of cock. xiping came. me and her started talking even more bullshit. i tink we're seriously quite crazy liao. anw i rmbr i was laughing damn hard at the letter jiamin's angel wrote to her. zomg its really quite funny when u read it, and its even funnier when wangguan reads it out and comments on it! HAHA!

then xiping worked on the script. (cos i didnt do my share and she did my share for me in the end. wow xiping i am so paiseh but thx! xD) ya chatted and then went home. had a really really good time. =)



the cynic spoke @ 9:16 PM