Tuesday, January 29, 2008
long day today.but my long day ends at 2.30pm i am so lucky. LOL!

anw happy birthday to manting! haha. hope u like ur present! though i like didnt spend as much time helping to find it! cos i left halfway. LOL! but i got help at home one k i checked ur blog for yongsheng and eileen. HAHA! anw ya they really really spent alot of time looking for it hehe. yongsheng the champ's story, i shant elaborate here la.

went baoguan after sch. jiamin and nishuai were there. mincong the organizer was sick and didnt go. anw jiamin left early so in the end left me and nishuai. jie3 was abnormally high today i tink she took drugs or sth. HAHA! ok we were being quite crazy in xiao room. but that happens quite often la. LOL.

anw guess who we saw when walking out of baoguan. haha. ou1 xuan1 AKA jeannette aw! shes like more chio in real life. haha. anw she was standing at the carpark la probably here for some interview/phototaking session.

TMR. duno wat to do. big possibility of going home earlier. which is only that big. HAHA!

and i love elation and happiness, but i hate that low u drop to after that initial high.



the cynic spoke @ 9:52 PM

Monday, January 28, 2008
i deleted that chinese post. cos its not worth ur time reading it and not worth my time dwelling over it.

lately i've realised, how important it is to let go and move on. life goes on anw, so why not just live it more happily?



the cynic spoke @ 10:48 PM

shiok sia every monday go sch at 9.30 (if u nvr take any enrichment classes that is). so had breakfast with og!

which is no og. cos probably more than half of the og overslept or sth. then others had AMC selection test. hahaha. met yongsheng eileen jane and nabilah at mrt before we decided to go yakun. which is all of them ate liao besides me and eileen. -.- ate set toast plus 2 eggs. yongsheng koped eileen's eggs LOLOLOLOL.

anw rachel joined us from rj after jane left early. then lester and yonghan came too! anw after we finished eating eileen and yongsheng contrived to concoct a mixture of pepper+soysauce+leftover iced coffee+remnants of soft-boiled eggs+wat not.

"lets play zhong1 ji2 mi4 ma3. or i have never also can"-eileen tan, AFTER breakfast. pls lor i dont want to puke HAHA. we tried to mask it off as coffee and offered it to yonghan when he just came and he cleverly refused the offer. haha!

ok walked slowly back to sch after the meal and was actually late. but aiya the whole sch was late la LOL. lessons were booooring (especially gp. wat a drag). pe was ok. though we played some retarded game called land water-polo. LOL.

then played bball after sch! with guys in class. 3 vs 3. wahh weather was damn good. anw i havent played such a good game in a long time. totally shiokkkk. haha the guys can really play man, esp. zhengjun and victor. wahahaha. feels really good when the ball is shared well. and even better to exert urself. haha.

yah yah and it's nice driving past ppl taller/stronger than you and going to the basket to score. and i finally managed to score from the wing. like just chop the shot in. which is up to that point i was airballing/hitting the rim. must slowly get the touch (which is no touch) back. but aiya dont play really regularly anw. but hopefully can play more often with the peeps in class.

then stoned in sch. again. and followed yongsheng and eileen to get sth done. which was not done when i left the 2 of them. LOL. i wonder whether its done now.. ><

and i really need to start reaching home like earlier. LOL!



the cynic spoke @ 9:29 PM

Saturday, January 26, 2008
okay i shall blog about ytd as requested by eileen. haha.

lessons were ok. glad to learn that probably everyone in class will be staying. though not really the case for the og. ayee. most impt thing is to keep in touch k! =))

chem prac made me realise how helpful the ppl in the class are. hahaha. very cool la we just help each other take stuff without asking. yeah class rocks. then econs tutorial was spent playing scarcity game which was chao funny cos we produced the wrong thing and no one wanted to trade with us LMAO! hahahahaha.

ok fun part came after sch. was stoning around waiting for eileen to finish her cake (ya one cake. not small one is those regular birthday cakes, cos her fren's bdae mah, and ya one) LOL. then went for BLYC meeting. is whoa so many members we didnt even get a seat. anw i tink lester was very ke3 lian2 cos everyone chatting amongst themselves then he was competing with the noise to talk. >< yeah shush them up also no use. -.-

anw i've decided to be enthu for youth club as long as time permits (which equates to if it does not clash with zaobao). ya and eileen u shall come MPS with me then u'll understand my agony when i go for outings at pasir ris park. wahahahaha. meeting supposed to last for 1 and a half hours in the end took just half an hour. lol! went for HHHH! (Hadley Hullett Happy Hour). wahaha. last house to have house party, like finally.

anw we spent like damn long time before going (cos we were trying to drag jiajia along), and cos MOU3 MOU3 REN2 wanted to save money (LOL ok i shall not elaborate cos i was an accomplice). ok so we managed to enter in the end. haha had a fun time chatting with og/not finishing monopoly with og and dylan. tried to teach everyone how to play texas poker after dinner but i guess it was so noisy i failed. >< and we (being me, sanqian, donglun and chilin to some extent) were constantly giving eileen our utmost moral support, which ended up becoming a mass bullying session. we r NOT suan lor pls. LOL. ok must try to stop bullying u liao there is a reputation to salvage. and i really dont want to be murdered -.-

after happy hour ended, wat was left of the og went coffee bean to stone. yongsheng joined the party and became target number 2 muahahaha. LOL. anw everyone became high along the way and started singing. sing sing sing. ok there was me eileen yongsheng chilin donglun and edmund at coffee bean. wat did we do? we stoned while donglun ate 2nd serving for dinner and a a nice drink. ok i was sian, so i started taking photos.





the cynic spoke @ 9:39 PM

Thursday, January 24, 2008
in approximately just under 1 and a half hours time everyone will be getting their results.

so all the best ppl! ur can do it de! and i really really hope everyone will stay ba. =)))

oh and i just realised i forgot to mention that the post on 20th jan was my 200th post! wahahaha.



the cynic spoke @ 11:35 AM

Wednesday, January 23, 2008
happy birthday to me! happy birthday to shida! wahahahahaha.

yeah i am officially 17. the sian age when you are 1 year older than when u turned legal but still 1 year from being able to do alot more useful stuff. but sian age aside, it was a great day today!

reached sch later than everyone else in og. turns out they were waiting for me alr. wow totally paiseh. anw there was a cake! and prezzies muahaha. ok so it was quite a mad rush to light the candles sing song and eat cake! cake was nice. wahahaha.

alot of ppl's birthdays lately. been hearing alot of birthday songs. my class got 4 ppls' birthdays in a row. 21st was victor, ytd was yiusum, today is me, tmr is zhihua. haha! then this morning the og beside ours also got ppl bdae.

prezzies r like, chao funny. i got this plushie puppie from yongsheng eileen and cassia. ya they wanted me to hug it around sch. -.- managed to beg eileen for bag. but wasnt really needed la. cos the girls in class basically took turns to hug it. HAHA. i really tink they didnt want to return to me. haha!

yongsheng and eileen also got me this ultra big mug. "size does matter". wahahaha. and some cute card which i really like! which is really sincere and ya they risked being s******-ized to do the card la! even though they pangseh-ed me. -.- ehh i wont forget ur de dont worry! lalala.

then i got a bookmark and lucky charm from huangyu. cute! and i could really do with the lucky charm this year. wahahaha.

oh and the most CHAMPION present was from nabilah. she got me a pack of DUREX CONDOMS. ya that is jing4 bao4 birthday present of the year! HAHAHA! FUNNY DAO4 BAO4! ok nabilah thx for them but i probably wont be using them in the near future. which means i probably wont be doing it not that i wont be practising safe sex. NO APOLOGIES. LOL!

so lessons were boring me out. then after assembly class went canteen to eat cake! celebrate all 4 of the jan babies' bdaes! cake was niceeee too! haha! yay yay 2 birthday cakes in one day totally cool. thats 3 i've eaten this year. muahahaha.

ok anw thx to everyone who wished me a happy birthday be it personally or through sms/msn/facebook/etc. and whether it was early/today. haha. i really really appreciate it! =))) yupp and i really love all the prezzies and the cakes! love HH10 and 09s03I! haha! thx for making this birthday so great everyone! =DDD



the cynic spoke @ 9:45 PM

Monday, January 21, 2008
suddenly everyone wants to sing. i wanna sing too! haha.

ok maybe i just wanna have one really good kbox outing to sing my heart and guts out. probably cos of the emotions stuffed full in my heart since the start of the year. i just need to sing to vent them all out.

yeah i can just do up a list of all the songs i really wanna sing. hahahaha. ayeeeeeee.



the cynic spoke @ 10:27 PM

Sunday, January 20, 2008
had a happy noon today. =)

met nishuai mincong jiamin xiping qite and xuchang for lunch at tpy before meeting. went to eat at crystal jade. then had sort of mini celebration with a cake. haha. i dont normally celebrate my birthdays la, so it was a really touching gesture.

which is i didnt even say a proper thank you to everyone. ok so i shall take this opportunity to thank every one of you who made my day! haha. i'm really thankful even if i didnt appear to be. <3 all of you to bits!!! =))))))



the cynic spoke @ 7:21 PM

Saturday, January 19, 2008
i'm finally here. been spending the whole sat doing tutorials. wat the shit. ok at least i've been that little bit productive, though i really hope the chem tutor made a mistake when he told us to complete the whole of the chem tutorial by monday. cos we havent even been taught everything? lol. first time i'm doing work on a sat NIGHT. zzzzz....

many things have been happening in sch. not convenient to mention here. HAHA. ppls' reputations are at stake and i must be a responsible friend. i'm quite enjoying sch (except for the chore of waking up so early in the morning), and yah time has been passing really really fast. its like week 4 next week alr. oh wells.

BLYC interview was ok. though i was stumped by some of the qns they asked. haha. hope i didnt screw up cos i really wanna get in.

and the class is getting to be really nice. chem prac bench mate huirong is chao funny! and very helpful too! hahaha. i tink i'm ultra lucky my class is not the hardcore mugger kind and everyone is nice and willing to help each other. yupp. and we have 4 ppls' birthdays in a row next week! HAHA! totally cool la!

we need a PARTYYYY. =DDDD



the cynic spoke @ 11:38 PM

Wednesday, January 16, 2008
there's actually many things i want to say, many thoughts i want to pen down. but aiya i guess i shld just be me and keep most of them to myself.

ok heres some though. guess i'm REALLY grateful that my transition to jc life has been so smooth. lovely og. and i'm beginning to take to my class too! yupp. everyone is talking to each other and i feel the class is much more bonded le. and we've like only played ONE game of capt's ball so far ><

haha yupp. not forgetting eileen and yongsheng 2 good frens made in sch. which is eileen i am so sorry i pangseh-ed u today ><. yeah and all the best to yongsheng for 2nd round of shooting trials. i'm quite sure i didnt get in so now i can just focus on getting into BLYC. wahahaha.

yeah and i havent stopped growing. LOL. and i nvr gain weight. wahahahaha. ok this is damn random. went baoguan ytd. study and do hw. with nishuai mincong and jiamin. which is this time they talked more than me! lol! i am totally showing myself that i can actually study in a group which is total relief. haha. mincong was telling jokes which are omg totally funny dao4 laugh until ur stomach bao4! hahahaha! hopefully the ppl working outside didnt tink we're crazy ppl or sth. totally FENG1!

oh, and i've finally almost stopped emo-ing le. haha. my mood is like finally not so inconsistent, but if u hear me saying things i normally wouldnt say, doesnt mean i'm siao la. when u go to new environments, u pick up new habits. so ya pls bear with me. haha!

wahh i'm so tired. i'm starting to continue the habit of looking forward to weekends again! xD



the cynic spoke @ 10:05 PM

Monday, January 14, 2008
floorball trials were.. quite disgusting. lol. ok la seeing as to how so many ppl turned up i guess they were trying to do the best job they could.

basically they split us up into grps of 4 to play against each other. was with seng han, bing long and one AHS guy called nicholas. haha. just play like kampong liddat. the ppl r totally siao. this trial like totally brought the ugly sides out of ppl. they just anyhow whack without caring for safety. totally siao. ppl falling down. ppl getting hit. some asshole hit my finger with the bloody stick. i was like totally pissed off at him. basket just raise stick and anyhow hit. zzzz... end up my finger bleeding underneath the nail. =/

then another pangsai tink he damn good keep on solo-ing. siao bo. guess he was from hockey last time. teammate open calling for ball he treat it like a joke and dribble another side. like wow totally duno wat teamwork is. i bet even the j2s werent impressed.

so after that like no mood liao. seng han got through second round, they reduced us to 3 on 3, so we played more lo. play liao not shortlisted. they told us go the other round of trials if we really wanna join, which is i totally dont need another experience le. thanks, but no thanks.

so now i have BLYC interviews on fri. and potential shooting 2nd round on fri also. lol. if i get into 2nd round hope they dont clash. if nvr get in then i guess i'll be happy with BLYC le. since i got titong anw, shouldnt tie myself up that much.

and i just realised since i entered rjc i havent reached home earlier than 6.30pm before. HAHA!



the cynic spoke @ 8:44 PM

Saturday, January 12, 2008




the cynic spoke @ 7:15 PM

hwee leong (orientation i/c) said during onite: "you never know what the end feels like until it really comes."

ya so i really shldnt be tinking too much.

but somehow when i have free time my mood just drops automatically. cant help it. tsk.

do i really have to keep doing work to numb myself?



the cynic spoke @ 1:11 PM

finally fell asleep during econs lecture. haha. tink i was too tired liao. and the econs lecturer is really quite boring as well. the amazing thing is that i still managed to take down alot of sai4 notes. lol. cannot fall asleep man i'm supposed to like econs or sth. -.-

shooting tryouts were ok. me and yongsheng dragged eileen to the tryouts even though she had no intention of joining in the first place. haha! ok my grouping was not bad for the rifle, but it was total sai4 for pistol. couldnt even get 10 shots on the card. haha. the coach then made us go through some funny tests to test our balance stability and whatnot. quite interesting. really wont mind getting in la, but floorball is still my first choice i guess. unless everyone i noe get into shooting. haha. but there are only 7 places for grabs so the chances of getting in are really minimal. must see how lucky i am le.

been meeting alot of new ppl and making new frens lately. yongsheng's classmates/ex classmates/friend's friends. haha. all very nice ppl. mm. glad to know nice ppl in the sch though i'm quite sure i'll know other not very nice ones as time goes along.

which is i really hope time will slow down.



the cynic spoke @ 1:01 PM

Thursday, January 10, 2008
最近变得比较正常了。但还不是完全正常啦。但至少情绪还是蛮稳定的。

开课了，有的忙了。可以麻醉自己吧？但麻醉剂的效果也只是短暂的。不忙时，有很多时间时，还是会不知觉地让头脑加班，让自己想很多很多的事情，越想越复杂......

或许这是我打不起精神的原因吧，如果可以什么都不必去想，那该有多好。现在只能，不要想太多？

p.s. 最近好像发生许多不愉快的事情，希望大家的运快快有所好转...



the cynic spoke @ 10:20 PM

i'm beginning to take more to my class alr. haha. started talking more to the ppl today. ya and i can rmbr more names alr. all without any bonding sessions. haha! yeah did maths with them ba.

maths lecture bores the pants off me. the lecturer keeps repeating the same things over and over again and she goes at some snail pace i tink even my grandmother is faster. just get on with the lecture man! old woman keep beating about the bush... zzzzz... the whole row of my class was yawning alot pls. lol!

hope the class can stick together more cos its like lecture end everyone split. not even a chance to talk. haha. poor me has to go find someone to do sth with. lucky i found eileen. went library to do maths. haha.

ok not much happened today until after sch. tmr got shooting tryouts. hope can do well!



the cynic spoke @ 9:43 PM

Wednesday, January 9, 2008
birthday in exactly 2 weeks time! time is passing really really fast and somehow i'm beginning to prefer that it slow down abit. i can be sure that this year and the next are gonna come and go damn quickly. oh wells.

and i noe wat my birthday wish is alr! (guess it was decided quite long ago anw. haha)



the cynic spoke @ 11:14 PM

i still rmbr wat jianing said after onite: "4 days is too short." maybe thats why the og is spending quite alot of time together. hahaha.

lectures started ytd. guess i'm fine with lectures. at least time passes fast for me. haha. makes a nice change from having classes. speaking of classes, i guess i'm prepared to take my time with the class ba. guess it really takes time to gel together as a whole. and yeah i really hope that will happen with time.

morning gatherings with og are fun. get to hear interesting stories from ogls and its really just nice to see everyone together.

anw i realised by the time i got to sch today that there was really no need to go sch today. lol. no morning assembly cos of the overcast sky, so no attendence taking. then assembly talk at noon also cancelled (apparently rj really likes to cancel these), which left me with ABSOLUTELY NOTHING for the day! (cos i had free blocks all the way until assembly at noon). so if i didnt plan to go cca feste i wouldnt have needed to go sch at all. wowowow.

at first i planned to crash at some schs. in the end ended up crashing 3 lectures with eileen. all with yonghan. haha. initially agreed to crash only the physics lecture during first 2 blocks, since she changed sub to pcme alr and i was still undecided. oh anw yeah i totally just killed my desire to change sub combi after the physics lecture cos i was looking at the qns asked and i totally didnt understand any of them. lol! ><

so yeah eileen the feng1 nv3 decided she wanted to crash the next 2 lectures too! haha! ok la i tagged along cos eileen is really a nice girl and i had well, nth better to do anw. o.0 so its like we went for intro to maths and chem which we had alr gone for ytd. haha! so we were acting smart and predicting wat the lecturer would say next. it was really quite funny.

after lectures ended yongsheng had to stay back so we went to canteen. ate with ppl from og. then ppl left in the end i was chatting with nellie and eileen. halfway through yijun and dylan came. they were telling me about this vietnamese girl in their class. haha. ok shant be mean. but it was really hilarious. then later yijun took out his phone, i took out mine. dylan became excited, took out his phone and started mixing them up like puzzles. cos all 3 of us have the same phone. HAHA. N81 is really quite popular. lmao.

ok met up near tavern again to finally eat our 3rd prize from onite after everyone had finished their lectures. haha. then went cca feste! was with nellie and derek. i signed up for floorball and shooting, as well as BLYC. hope can pass the trials for at least one of the sport, though i'm not really optimistic. oh and i managed to psycho nellie and eileen to sign up for BLYC too. haha! will be quite cool if all 3 of us get in. saw alfred at soccer booth. tried to psycho me to go for soccer trials. haha. didnt sign up la, i noe my limits and well even though they always say its worth a try, i guess i wont want to waste my time with sth impossible la. (cant say for other stuff though. wat a weirdo i am). derek kept on looking out for cyber-gaming club. haha! cos he wanna dota. lolol.

met zsd. went to collect testimonial (i call it the document which even u urself blush upon reading it). went back rj. met eileen and yongsheng again. haha. they were with yongsheng's cat high fren called edwin. sat down and chatted with them. played "i have never". laughed alot. hahaha. yeah went around rj, visited "the bar", contemplated playing bball.

then went back ri. i suddenly had the urge to visit ncc training. haha. some ppl quite excited to see me? some not so i guess. saw part Bs (my last year part As la) marching. sucks like total shit. oh and they start blaming me. shant name any names la. but some ppl i guess they really ego until they cant be bothered to show any fucking respect. i go back see, give my black face and make sarcastic comments. i was quite unhappy la i guess.

anw they were saying i lose face, asking me wat i was teaching the Part Bs. first things first, i'm no longer part of the unit, so watever is seen during training no longer has anything to do with me. anw i thot they were up to my standard last year. and anw i didnt say i teach them marching until damn pro. they were still on basics when i stepped down. so dont expect them to fly straight into the skies pls. then holiday training attendence is really not my fault either. aiya, i go back and become a convenient excuse for everything that isnt going well. look if their drills suck go improve it, dont blame on previous ppl. my batch didnt do that when we inherited this year's part Cs last year. so i dont see why the so called damn pro batch shld be doing it. but aiya its only one fuck-up la, who cares about him. tink he big just cos he wears a fucking lanyard. he needs to sort his brains out man. anw the 2 ex cat high ncc ppl said the Part Bs still ok since its start of the year. cat high ncc high standard also say this. guess they're alright.

ok saw viet playing bball at ri. haha. said hi. lolol. ya then went home while yongsheng and eileen went out eat. saw donglun at mrt station. haha! so qiao3.

looking forward to ending sch earlier tmr! shiok! =D



the cynic spoke @ 10:05 PM

Tuesday, January 8, 2008
had final day of orientation ytd. great great fun!

well day started off with us meeting with our CT class. wat to say. my first impression of the class hasnt been very good? i duno. too quiet for my liking. there are like 6 guys only (supposed to be 7 but one guy has decided to put up a disappearing act so we still dont know who he is) and the girls outnumber us 3 to 1. so much for a bcme class. and unfortunately the girls are seriously quite dao. maybe still strangers? i duno la. they just stick in their cliques and dont talk to anyone else.

anw half the guys are from cat high. another guy from duno which sch. which leaves, including me, 2 ri guys. and the other ri guy happens to be a vietnamese scholar. WOW. ok at least viet is friendly. hope he being CT rep can try to break the ice or sth. just jiayou ok. haha. whether i decide to change class depends on u. so anw i was stoning in one corner all alone listening to our CT (civics tutor) talk non-stop for 50 mins. wow she like cant stop talking liddat. very irritating when she keeps repeating the same point over and over again.

so at the end of it all she was like "anymore questions?" and i was damn bloody tempted to ask her "can u pls shut ur mouth?". zzzz..... basically 50 mins of CT had me begging for my og back. warghhhhh.

ok changed into our house tee for war games. house tee cutting is bloody big. rj shld just change shirt vendors or sth. siao. the M size is big dao4 bao4 totally not our PE shirt size in sec sch. so had to change size. haha.

ok we played 4 wargames. interhouse competition. uprising was this game where u crush newspaper balls while linked arm by arm then throw them into boxes whr the weight will carry the flag up, hence the name. HH won this game. wahahaha. then we played this breach the defense game whr u have to go through like 4 or 5 lines of defence (forgot which) in a lane to reach the end then report to ur house flag. we keep on attacking the BW lane and ended up getting pwned. lmao. i tink in the end like only 1 HH guy managed to get thru and we managed to beat BB just like that. LMFAO! next was pac man. some retarded maze game get balls and dump newspaper balls into ur own basket to earn points and dump raffia balls into other houses' baskets to make them lose points. crazy running away from the "monsters" to prevent losing balls. hahahahaha.

then came the ultimate siao game. strip me if u can. wowowow. nice name rite. the guys had 4 pegs pegged onto their back and were supposed to run from the girls who were "stripping" the pegs off the guys in pairs. got safety areas la. and the guys can go in between a pair of girls of the same house to be immune. the game was TOTAL SIAONESS. the girls are totally CRAZY can! u can get totally gangbanged by 3 pairs of girls at one go. they come at you from all directions and its like u cant run ANYWHERE at all. everywhere else u run u run into another pair. partheban told me he got gangbanged by 8 girls who pushed him down and raped him. LOL! when i finally died like the first time i was like shit i dont want to go down again. but in the end like i had to go down then i was in between a pair for damn long time before i decided to run. got pawned within 5 mins. went back up. bloody tired sia. retarded game for guys. then there are ppl who just hum4 ji1 and stay in safety area all the time until the music stops and become free for all. wowow.

ok after war games was free and easy. haha. lazed around. decided to go lester's home room to rehearse for our item. ok our item is basically this parody of a fashion show which i thought was totally HILARIOUS. ok i let the pics do the talking. these were taken during rehearsal on sat! (no names of any guy to be revealed to leave reputation intact)


ok so we went for auditions. not bad quite relaxed glad i wasnt that nervous.

had pizza for lunner (lunch+dinner). haha. edmund has, like he said, a legendary appetite. i tink he was prepared to finish 7 pieces of pizza. LOL! results of audition were supposed to be out before 5pm. so we like went to change into onite outfit alr. then we were at stadium steps when yonghan came back damn excited and said: "guess what guys?! GOOD NEWS! CHANGE OUT!" EVERYONE WENT CRAZY! HAHAHA! cos it was like after 5 liao then we thought no chance le. BUT WE GOT IN! whoooo. hard work paid off! heh.

yay so were one of 3 teams to perform. amelia's og got in too. their cross-dressing even more hardcore than ours. hahaha. all the guys wear rg uniforms. sick dao4 bao4. anw i was screaming like mad on stage la. (being emcee and all), and NO ONE COULD HEAR ME. wowowowow. waste of efforts. but aiya everyone was cheering and screaming for us it was so mad! haha! ok so we finished 3rd, but we're damn proud of ourselves! yay! =D

ok onite quite fun. skits were funny. dances were crazy. AND HADLEY HULLETT WON IHC FOR ORIENTATION. GREAT START TO THE YEAR! WOOOOT. first time my house win wth feel so happy. wowowowow. cheered. had fun. had a great time.





the cynic spoke @ 8:57 PM

Sunday, January 6, 2008
parents went msia. now i'm home alone again. wat does that make? perfect time to emo.

guess i really havent been normal since 1st jan. emo? ya i'm emotionally damn unstable now. guess orientation took my mind off alot of things, thats why i reverted to normal again. thought i was over that shit, but now its all coming back.

and its like, i guess everyone can see that i'm not normal. after meeting ppl were like asking me: "r u ok?" yes and no? i duno.. 就好像很多事憋在心里，不去想它没事，一想到它就超难受，那种感觉吧。就心里很乱，很烦，但又不知道到底在烦什么。

and this is like so not the time to break down. ok i guess i wont break down its not that serious really, but it will be if i dont sort myself out.

and its so not about sch. i'm perfectly fine in rj. unless i'm going to go into some shit class then ya that'll just add another problem. WARGH.

我真的有问题



the cynic spoke @ 6:58 PM

Saturday, January 5, 2008
oh i forgot to mention derek has a twin brother called daryl in rj this year too. so cool i saw him ytd. haha! so now i noe of 2 pairs sporting twins. the wong twins. and the tay twins.

lol!



the cynic spoke @ 3:00 PM

enjoy! =)





the cynic spoke @ 1:50 PM

hope everyone has been doing fine adjusting back to sch life after the hols. and that all the j1s have been enjoying their orientation. haha.

ok i havent been blogging cos for the first 3 days of sch i have returned home at 8.30pm, 10pm and 10pm respectively. which is come back all u want to do is to shower and slp. haha. i still tink i havent gotten enough rest cos i'm like, damn lethargic now.

orientation has been fun! though my prediction that there would be no one i know in the og came true. haha. but for the better i guess since i'm not like attached to anyone in the grp in particular and really had to go out and make new frens. HH10 is really fun with damn friendly ogls (yonghan jiajia and lester) and my og mates are nice too!

day 1 of orientation was.. ok la. though it was damn messy in the morning and i couldnt locate my og. lololol. locate liao also no space to sit. our orientation theme name t'sparanza which means "hope" in some language and the theme is based on egpyt (totally jie3's favourite haha). but the intro to the storyline was totally lousy cos the sound system in the hall totally sucks and i couldnt hear any sai4 from the video. LOL. the live performances are better ba. quite funny too. haha.

icebreakers in the morning. played double whacko and 私奔(elope). and they really worked. haha. i managed to match names to faces within 1 hour (actually its a skill i picked up from being zu zhang in titong but thats not impt). well the good thing was that theres no shit awkwardness between boys and girls. even though ya we still tend to sit together with our own gender, but doesnt mean theres some serious segregation la.

ok after lunch was hell. DAMN BLOODY BORING. plus i was suffering from post chalet withdrawal symptoms and exhaustion so i was damn tired and basically didnt feel like talking much. haha. basically quite stoned out. until everything ended at 4+ and our og was duscussing item for audition. the girls are totally feng1! cos the guys were really stoning so like the girls were actively dioscussing and zi4 high-ing by themselves. then they suggested cross dressing. totally feng1! suddenly the atmosphere become high again. LOL! ok afterward had og dinner. bought subway eat at open area on 3rd floor of j8. haha. had fun chatting (yonghan was doing most of the talking LOL) then went home.

day 2 was much better. had IHC (interhouse championship) opening in the morning. performances were great. the beatboxer was damn pro. the dancers also. totally siao. haha. had station games which were quite fun after IHC opening. then had HH (my house called Hadley-Hullett. duh) pizza party! 5 bucks for ur stomach's worth of pizza. wahahaha. which was like the 2nd time i had canadian pizza in 4 days (other time during chalet). haha! just stuffed my stomach. then afterward had leftover pepsi so everyone got an extra half cup and yongsheng (cat high guy who was also from ncc) was like telling me: "eh water parade" so ya i became damn siao and led a water parade cheer. by the end of it everyone was asking me wat i was screaming cos well they dont really understand hokkien i guess. hahaha.

yupp. had house meeting. learned batch dance. batch dance is quite good la. haha. at least its easy to learn. learnt batch song too. i quite like our batch song. its called "space in my heart" its 1000 times better than the shit that was "we are the young" which i tink i only sang seriously like thrice at most in my 4 years in ri. i never caught onto it and never bothered to memorise the lyrics. haha. so yeah good to hear a nice batch song. after dismissal went to raja block (we were told we cant stay late in sch. WOW) to finalise details for our audition. shant reveal too much of it but ya we've settled on sth and hope everyone gets to see it on stage on monday. wahahaha. ok we discussed until 9 then went to S11 to discuss and chat some more. AND I FOUND OUT THAT NABILAH IS SOME GYM GIRL WHO REPRESNTED SINGAPORE IN SEA GAMES AND I SAW HER ON TV. WOW. ya and the tay twins are in my batch. i just realised. haha. now i noe like 2 sports-ppl personally and so many sports personalities in rj. wow! ok i didnt eat at S11. lol. ate dinner at home at 10 LOL.

day 3 (which was ytd) was chao fun! cheered and sang the same anthem i sang for 4 years in the morning. then learned finished batch dance. then external activity started! it was an amazing race like we all guessed and we spent shit time finding the clue in sch before we really couldnt find it and was given the clue to proceed. haha. left for vivo and i had superdog for lunch. good burger. next time shall try the hotdogs. then off to sentosa we went. its like the whole j1 batch of rjc was on sentosa that day. lmao. one huge crowd outside the gates of monorail. then we were all quite high and doing siao stuff and talking alot of crap. hahaha.

reached sentosa first thing was to dance batch dance. LMAO! in public some more. so kuku >< and we couldnt hear the music so it was really crap. afterward went to take a nice walk along dragon trail only to find that we were taking a longer route and going one big round. then we realised we had overshot our destination and had to backtrack. derek is damn funny hes forever finding a seat. haha! was talking alot during the walk. i kept complaining i hate the sun so shld just continue walkng the trail cos its damn shady and cooling. then kena flamed cos they were saying i so tanned still say these kind of things. LOL! there was also passing balloon activity. quite straightforward.

then we went to sapphire pavilion to play pass the water bomb! TOTALLY HILARIOUS LOL. the girls like keep screaming and at the start really pass the water bomb like shit. after that we became efficient. anw after the game ended yongsheng threw waterbomb at yonghan. then all hell broke loose everyone threw at each other jiajia and yonghan got bullied and yonghan was chasing yongsheng around the pavilion. LOL! in the end yonghan failed (i tink on purpose) when he tried to dump a pail of water onto yongsheng. lmao. went beach station later on. started raining so we stayed under shelter and played games. forfeit was funny. jianing and donglun danced batch dance with reversed roles. guy dance girl girl dance guy. haha. yeah so the rain never stopped so we went back early. which was sad cos we missed the 2 most fun games. lolol.

tink they started rehearsing at vivo. i left them for quite awhile ba. =) rejoined them later and went home with lester and he was telling me about interesting experiences. haha. going back rj later for full dress rehearsal. hope finale on monday is fun!



the cynic spoke @ 12:34 PM

Tuesday, January 1, 2008
对不起我要emo一下下。

三天的时间，让我明白了为什么我一听就爱上了这首歌。但听了这首歌之后却真的让我哭了。被感动了？不知道。只觉得歌词超有意思，大概是因为真的说出了心里的话吧。

我是那种除了在生气还是心烦的时候不善于表达自己感情的人。话说不出来，我一向都靠行动表现的吧。但心事往往还是留给自己。我不是个会谈心的人。但很多时候连自己也搞不懂自己在想什么，感觉的是怎样。矛盾就是了吧。稀萍说过，水瓶座的人是反复无常的。超适合形容我吧。

昨天开始emo, 是因为想到了很多事。也不知是为哪一件事而忧郁，反正就开始没心情就是了。所以大家开开心心地打牌打麻将，我在一瞬间从超有兴致打牌到在大家热闹之中自己一个人发呆。连发白日梦都没有，就是发呆，心里有很多心事，脑子里却变得空的。

是害怕失去吧。很多东西你如果知道如何珍惜，你能一辈子都不失去它。其他的，就算你多珍惜，失去却是无法避免的事，你只能珍惜回忆。对人或物有了很深的感情之后，要放掉，肯定会不舍得吧。唉...

最后倪帅叫我别想太多。开学忙了之后也没机会想这些了吧。哈哈。2008年4月27日这天将会是我一生中最不期待的一天。如果有好事发生的话不期待的一天将会有另外一天。但至少，我还拥有回忆吧...



the cynic spoke @ 6:45 PM

happy new year everyone! back from titong chalet which was a blast and the perfect way to end 2007. haha. i guess all i wanted to do at the chalet was chat and chat and chat and i really enjoyed it. though by the end of it all i tink i was being overwhelmed by all kinds of emotions so i was becoming emo and practically just died away.

went to help out with interviews at baoguan on sunday in the morning first. mincong jiamin nishuai and xiping were there too. quite interesting seeing wat the ppl had to say and one young cedar girl (sec 2 this year) was so hilarious la! the answers she gave were just so funny i was having a hard time fighting the urge to just laugh out loud.

its like we asked her: "so how do u tink we shld pick the ppl when there are so many candidates who want to get in?" and she replied: "see the face la!". LOL. ok shes the only one who left a lasting impression on me. hope the new ppl we take in this year will be enthu and participate actively in our activities.

left early with mincong to check in at chalet. nsrcc has some screwed up shuttle bus service where the bus comes in quite long intervals and if u miss one u'll have to wait long for the next one. so i was quite glad i took a lift from mincong's dad. wahaha. reached there the first thing we did was to rent a mahjong set. haha. then jiamin and nishuai arrived and we went to play pool.

ok the pool is the sucky $2 a game kind. but its totally worth it for us cos we're not very good and take a long time to complete one game. haha. taught nishuai how to play pool. and can see her improve la so cool. =) then everyone started coming in and we went back to play mahjong. play cards. eat donuts. then dinner at poolside cafe which is some ex shit so i shared prawn aglio olio with nishuai since i wasnt very hungry. ok at least the food is not bad. haha.

then went back and just played more. which is wat else is there to do in the chalet. unless u play mass games which is yy gave up persuading us to play. haha. played huanghua's psp. i've decided virtual tennis is quite cool. jiahui jie came damn late and stayed around awhile to chat and watch tv with us. haha. xiping came damn late too wowow.

attempted to slp at night which is no slp cos wangguan was intent on digging things and we were answering retarded qns and bao4-ing no liao4 at all LOL. which is i couldnt even slp at all even after we stopped and i tink i just laid there with my eyes closed and alot of gas in my stomach. lololol. got up earlier in the morning to see sunrise which is no sunrise cos we couldnt see the sun. but the sea breeze is superb and the sea view is damn nice. and u can see alot of planes and see jiamin getting damn excited over them.


went back to play more mahjong. ate breakfast prepared by mincong. went off play bowling and more pool. played at arcade also. haha. ordered pizza for lunch. then kexin yuanyu huanghua and wangyue went off to cycle. wangguan yinyue and lixue just stay in bedroom and shuhan came and high-ed with jiamin. i went up to stone in room while waiting for bbq to arrive with mincong nishuai and xiping. then the 2 girls 兴致大起 and decided to start camwhoring. haha. so we were taking alot of funny pics and it was totally fun seeing how high they were. then wangguan yinyue and lixue came to join in the fun. lol!

koped a bike and went to cycle for a while after the 4 came back. haha. cycled with xiping for awhile then cycled with nishuai and listened to her experiences with the bike. wowowow. totally un-seen in singapore. hahaha. bbq was being set up by the time we got back and we were soon roasting food. laorens came and zongjun and qite came in the evening as well with alcohol. wowow. just opened bottles and share with other ppl. quite interesting seeing ppl's faces become red and everyone becoming high. which is yy became too high and started siao-ing. wowow. the influence of alcohol is seriously quite scary.

the present-taking part was damn fun! we went to take in order of age (oldest took first). then i just so qiao3 took xiping's planner which she bought when we went to buy stuff that day. she was like "wow then i took the effort to write the card for wat!" haha. cos she also wrote a postcard along with the gift. but the planner abit not for guy's usage i tink. then jiamin offered to exchange with her gift which is mincong's keychain which was also bought that day during shopping. so qiao3 that we just chou1 gifts we noe alr. but i like mincong's gift cos its really meaningful la. haha. its a "朋" and a "友" combined and i gave "朋" to nishuai. wahahaha. thx mincong thx xiping thx jiamin. =)

everyone continued high-ing playing singing. learned how to play texas poker. and totally won alot of chips. haha. decided its seriously not for gambling though unless u really noe how to gamble.

switched channel in time to count down to the new year. then continued playing. blackjack then asshole daidee. which is somehow i started becoming damn sian so i decided to stop playing. sat for a game of mahjong and totally no mood so i let mincong play and just stone beside him. i tink everyone thought i was damn tired or sth but i was actually just not in mood. partly cos of the thought of going to sch tmr. but more cos of other stuff ba i guess. in the end just shower and stone in the room. haiz haiz. chatted with nishuai and just fell asleep at 3 am.

yupp. checked out at 10 this morning and went to eat at changi airport with nishuai jiamin shimin xiping zongjun and qite. had swensens. good food. nice ice cream. came home and still havent slept. guess i'll be sleeping earlier tonight. or else i'll seriously just die tmr.



the cynic spoke @ 4:24 PM