Tuesday, July 31, 2007
the old virgin went crazy today, and wasted 2 hours of my precious time asking us to do bloody work.

the old virgin is a good teacher, but she can be extremely eccentric at times. no make that many times.

fuck now i've got no time. NO TIME.



the cynic spoke @ 7:41 PM

Monday, July 30, 2007
the judges said it best tonight. theres nothing more i can add. though i tink u'll still get in. good luck to you.

oh and to all who were watching tv just now, u can stop flaming my sch. cos someone filmed at my sch instead of filming in his own sch.

most impt thing in life? be grateful.



the cynic spoke @ 8:45 PM

day was not bad. considering how bad it was ytd, wonder wat it would have been like if it got worse.

training was good today, surprisingly. one of the best in months. can see thr sec 1s really putting in effort alr. duno whether is today fan3 chang2 or wat. oh wells hope they keep it up.

oh and YOU wont write my testimonial! i am totally THRILLED.



the cynic spoke @ 8:35 PM

Sunday, July 29, 2007
fresh air is important. when you dont usually talk much. when u keep everything cooped up inside. when you dont want to talk.

fresh air. clears ur mind. dilutes ur frustration. makes u feel refreshed.

no wonder my window so big. no its not for me to jump out of. its for me to get fresh air.



the cynic spoke @ 11:41 PM

i'm not believing you did it. not until i'm shown really concrete evidence.

but if u really did it, i'll never forgive you. NEVER.

finally i know why i'm feeling so screwed. knn......

totally MESSED UP.



the cynic spoke @ 11:01 PM

last time i played fifa, the commentator would say this when the keeper let in too many goals: "no words can adequately describe how distraught the keeper must be feeling."

i'm not distraught. but sure no words can adequately describe how i feel now. or how i felt just now. i dont even know wat i was feeling. frustration? anger? amusement? i have absolutely no idea. all i know is that i didnt feel normal.

that moment, something just broke. for the first time, i wasnt feeling myself. the way it happened, the ones who made it happen, made things worse. cos i was helpless, i didnt noe wat to do, how to react. or maybe i knew wat to do, but i didnt want to do it.

cos i didnt want to go back. i've gone through it once, dont want to make the same mistake twice. i was split. torn. i wanted to betray my emotions, but i remained meek. there were things i wanted to say, but i remained silent. my mind was full of stray thoughts. i almost let my emotions get the better of me.

perhaps, its better off being cold-blooded sometimes.

or maybe, its just me being a barstard. an oversensitive git.



the cynic spoke @ 6:48 PM

Saturday, July 28, 2007
wats wrong with being number 2?



the cynic spoke @ 3:17 PM

Thursday, July 26, 2007
doing on elitisim for SS social documentary. was doing research online ytd and came across many forums. alot of interesting comments posted there.

apparently, everyone assumes that the elites are those who come from the top schools in singapore. they assume that just because they are top schs, everyone considers them to be big. they assume that everyone in top schs tink they are very big. so everytime they dont like sth, all they ask is "[insert sch name] very dua meh?"

they assume that everyone in top schs cant speak chinese properly. they assume that everyone in top schs only noe how to speak english. they assume that clever ppl must be proficient in eng. they assume that everyone in top schs are cleverer than them.

they assume that everyone from top schs are arrogant, aloof and proud. they assume that everyone from top schs look down on them. they tink like that, and they assume everyone thinks like them. they assume that their perceptions are right. they assume that "normal" ppl shldnt have friends from top schs. they assume that everyone from top schs ostracize them.

they assume that everyone from top schs are different from them.

they forget many who entered good schs were like them.

they make me wonder who are the ones being ostracized. they make me wonder who are the ones allowing it. they make me wonder who really are the ones causing this divide.

assumption. its the mother of all fuck-ups.



the cynic spoke @ 8:35 PM

went to eat lunch at thomson plaza with jeff zsd and yijun ytd.

was eating fried rice. eat eat eat. then i scooped rice up and saw sth weird on my rice. i picked it up and was looking at it. then was wondering "wtf is that?" and realised it looked like a bloody insect. caterpillar or maggot. omfg. i was damn hungry at first but suddenly became very full.

knn la maggot in my food. like WTF. then when jeff ask the woman wat it was she was like trying to deny it was anything harmful. just keep asking us wat "you not scared of it right?" in chinese. knn of cos i not scared of it la. its been cooked until its flat alr wat is there to be scared of.

yijun and zsd was scrutinizing their fried rice very carefully before eating after that. nvr pursue the matter. and lucky im fine. dont tink i'll eat from that cafe again. sick shit. URGH.



the cynic spoke @ 8:28 PM

Monday, July 23, 2007
of all the things in the world you can question and be cynical about, never ever do that for friendship.

dont ever question the intentions of those you consider ur frens. they always mean well, though they might not put it in a nice way.

distrusting them could be the biggest mistake u make in ur life.



the cynic spoke @ 9:40 PM

Sunday, July 22, 2007
this will be a short one. my time is split between doing work, using the com and reading harry potter. the end result is no time. LOL.

meeting today. not bad we cleared another chunk of stuff. but i tink some ppl really need to focus more during meeting. they never contribute anything but spend their time engaging in private conversations which distract other ppl or simply do their own stuff. then when they say something, it turns out to be crap.

im not naming names. just pls noe that other ppl noe wat u were doing, and were complaining. i refrained from singling u out. didnt want anyone to harbour bad feelings. and ur not new u shld noe better. so pls pls be more serious.



the cynic spoke @ 11:12 PM

Saturday, July 21, 2007
i knew it was impossible.

i acknowledged it was impossible.

then i started tinking about the impossible.

i must be the world's greatest idiot.



the cynic spoke @ 5:22 PM

back from flag day and reading abit of harry potter and the deathly hallows. sort of know the ending liao. wont post spoilers here LOL.

theres nth to do and i dont want to do hw. so i shall post more videos up.

WOW nth better to do so they ended up playing erasers HAHA.



and 2 more ppl joined in..



we were supposed to do grp discussion in library..



then we returned to class late and were not allowed to enter! LOL!





and this is lee bing long the siao kia lighting SIX matches to test for hydrogen gas...



ULTIMATE SIANNESS.



the cynic spoke @ 3:31 PM

Friday, July 20, 2007
ran 2.4 today. was totally lousy i dont noe whether its me not used to running on the field or simply my stamina being too lousy. but if my stamina deproved my timing wouldnt have dropped by almost a minute from last year?

the field is seriously not a good place to run 2.4. its feels more comfortable running but its so soft u need more energy to run long distances. drains u out real fast. after the run my breathing was back to normal quite fast but my legs were aching like some sai4. o.0

played bball after the run. fared much better at that. managed to drive and score a few layups without getting blocked(wat an achievement). but my jumper wasnt dropping though. sian la i rmbr that time i played during june hols i chopped everything. then 3 weeks nvr play become liddat. =.= must play more and rely less on my speed, get better at dribbling the ball, improve outside shooting and improve the technical side of the game. at least i'm pulling down rebounds. =D

went to support judo after sch. even though i my class wasnt scheduled to go. i am SO ENTHU which is NO ENTHU. LOL.

nabeh the ri shits really got no consideration at all. standing up. front row some more. knn we went to watch judo not watch their heads. and we were not intending to stand. let alone cheer. in the end we dulan me jeff and zsd moved to another place watch. the only time we cheered was during b div boys final. cos there were ppl we knew playing!

CONGRATS B DIV FOR WINNING GOLD. u make me feel great cos i WROTE AN ARTICLE ABOUT U. but i say win double gold leh, then c div nvr qualify for finals. but i said we'll beat hwachong and was right on that one. we won it quite dramatically i guess. dropped the first match. then weixiang came on. and bloody hell pwned the hc guy in under 30 seconds. just threw him. then titus won after time expired. we threw on our 2 best ppl alr and it was down to yanjun to win it for us. AND HE DID MAN everyone was still saying how he might screw up and all wat no confidence, but he won.

i tink weixiang really inspired and fired everyone up. see how he screamed after he beat the hc guy. really trying to intimidate the opponent or sth. then still scream at raffles tell them not to cheer some more. good spirit man.

jiamin was there also. so i went there and she tell me her phone died again. like wow couldnt contact her at all LOL. in the end left early in the middle of a girls and didnt see her. like lmao or sth. jokes haha!



the cynic spoke @ 6:57 PM

Wednesday, July 18, 2007
called 11 ppl, and can finally get on with wat i need to do..

anw got a gigantic shock this morning. was fooling around with charles before history, then he carried me up(which he always does, cos im just too light). but this time, HE FLIPPED ME UPSIDE DOWN. like waturf i was hanging upside down for like 5 seconds, if he had dropped me i would have just died pls.

and morier saw when she was walking to class. HAHA.

took more videos! shall upload tmr..



the cynic spoke @ 9:27 PM

wat the FUCK la.

8.30 pm suddenly send mail ask me call ALL part As to inform them got flag day this sat. oh and i have to go also. pls i have better things to do than calling 22 ppl u noe?

knnbccb. im totally sick and tired of not being informed about anything. they fucking dont spread any messages down. sat got cip wed then say. that is totally just spoil my day. i was still considering whether to go for vball event on sat. now my mind has been made up NOT BY MYSELF. and no inter-ug also.

FUCK CAN.



the cynic spoke @ 8:40 PM

Tuesday, July 17, 2007
was supposed to do maths today.. ended up reading tuesdays with morrie by mitch albom. need to finish it cos of ERP. short book. cleared it in 3 hours.

i dont normally read. and i wouldnt have read this book if not for ERP. but i would strongly recommend all of you to read it. it really offers new perspectives on life, and might even touch you to tears.

meaningful 3 hours.



the cynic spoke @ 7:27 PM

Monday, July 16, 2007
today took more videos of the class. whoohooo. it seems we are oblivious to teachers...



these are the class prefects. leaders of the sch HAHA.



LAW JIA HAO SINGING. not bad la..



wth was chengwen doing when we were presenting out physics project?!



retarded class game invented by us played during lunch.



sadly everything drops in this one...

I LOVE MY CLASS. aside from the fact that certain ppl really spoil it for me.. but oh wells!



the cynic spoke @ 10:44 PM

sambor received shin guards for his birthday present! spot something wrong with the presen(hint observe the 2nd picture carefully!)

LOL!

the cynic spoke @ 10:26 PM

the song in my previous post perfectly sums up i how i feel right now.

training ended early today.. so that we could interview(unofficial) the sec 3s and uncover the prospects. which is i tink everyone has some idea of the make-up of next year's exco.

asked some crap questions. asked some serious questions as well. at the start we were like "wow we've come full circle" cos last year we were the ones being interviewed and now we're the interviewers. was reminiscing about our interviews and geeva was telling me: "that time they asked me like 'how do u tink muquan will react if he doesnt get into top 2?"(cos i was being a pantat at that time and told them i wanted to be USM. basically everyone knew the top 2 would be: USM geeva and ASM fawaz but i decided to give them a run for their money. of cos i failed hoho).

geeva said "i tink he'll react VERY well cos he doesnt care about wat post he gets and will do his best in everything." which is SO true cos i only wanted top 5 so that i could go senior spec course and get the red lanyard which looks so cool on no. 4. though now i tink i'd rather have gone for supernumery course to get the golden/yellow lanyard which looks cooler.

then they asked him why dont want put me as part C staff put me part A staff instead. geeva told them part As come in will be noobs and needed someone pro to guide them. thx geeva for tinking so highly of me but sorry i failed you HAHA!

in the middle of the interview mr koh suddenly came in and asked geeva go out to talk. then after that called for part A specs. apparently he had received a letter of complaint from some sec 1's parent say specs use vulgarities during training. so he was telling geeva to tell us to stop. then telling me bin and rex to stop also. which is totally LOL cos im stopping alr. now then the parent complain. later i asked one sec 1 whether his class use anot. he said everyone says that anw. maybe the parent shld go take a look at the flash movie which i introduced ytd?

ok so in the end we ended quite late without completing one round of interview. was chatting with sambor while walking to mrt. decided we were satisfied with wat we have done for rincc. when i took over as part A staff my goal was to get their drills better than part B's. which is i achieved that goal but their attitude sucks(even mr koh agress). that i've tried my best and cant do anything about it. so good luck to the guy who takes over my part. you'll surely do a better job than me. if u cant u can go and commit suicide.

and apparently some part As dont like my working style. oh wells u might just die next year then under the new staff cos im slack enough. you know, many a times u look at the ppl up there and tink u can do a better job than them cos u find alot of faults in wat they do. i used to tink liddat too. but only when u really take over, u realise how tough their jobs are.

i believe this batch part Cs will be able to do a better job than us la. as long as they really come together and unite. wat i tink is theres alot of politics within their batch, which was practically non-existent within my batch cos we just didnt give a shit. thats one thing im most proud of. we practically nvr hid anything from each other. just told everything. slander each other in front of everyone. cos we knew at the end of the day there would be no problems with each other.

AND I JUST LEARNED TODAY KOH THREATENED TO DEMOTE GEEVA AND FAWAZ AND STRIP THEM OF THEIR POSTS COS HE WAS PISSED WITH THEIR ATTITUDE DURING MARCH CAMP. (as if we werent pissed with him). i would have liked to see him try though. imagine wat would have happened. all the specs would have rebelled. and he would have been TOTALLY SCREWED. cos in sch, one for all, all for one only applies to me in rincc.



the cynic spoke @ 8:24 PM

Sunday, July 15, 2007
Leave Out All The Rest - Linkin Park

I dreamed I was missing, you were so scared
But no one would listen, 'cause no one else cared
After my dreaming, I woke with this fear
What am I leaving when I'm done here?

So if you're asking me, I want you to know

When my time comes, forget the wrong that I've done
Help me leave behind some reasons to be missed
Don't resent me, and when you're feeling empty
Keep me in your memory, leave out all the rest

Leave out all the rest, don't be afraid
I've taken my beating, I've shared what I made
I'm strong on the surface, not all the way through
I've never been perfect, but neither have you

So if you're asking me, I want you to know

When my time comes, forget the wrong that I've done
Help me leave behind some reasons to be missed
Don't resent me, and when you're feeling empty
Keep me in your memory, leave out all the rest
Leave out all the rest

Forgetting all the hurt inside you've learned to hide so well
Pretending someone else can come and save me from myself
I can't be who you are

When my time comes, forget the wrong that I've done
Help me leave behind some reasons to be missed
Don't resent me, and when you're feeling empty
Keep me in your memory, leave out all the rest
Leave out all the rest

Forgetting all the hurt inside you've learned to hide so well
Pretending someone else can come and save me from myself
I can't be who you are

I can't be who you are



the cynic spoke @ 10:01 PM

i watched this duno how many years ago. still rmbr it damn clearly LOL.

click HERE to watch!

and say it out loud proudly LOL.



the cynic spoke @ 7:50 PM

i tink human relations and communications is really a weird thing.

some ppl can talk non-stop online or over sms. then when they meet face-to-face, they find it hard to talk to each other.

other ppl dont bother about each other online, neither do they sms each other. then when they meet, they got endless things to talk about.

=/



the cynic spoke @ 7:37 PM

meeting today. i am so happy we were so efficient! discussed and settled a whole load of things b4 5, and everyone was cooperative! we must keep this up haha.. hope everyone will really put their heart into planning the individual things they're in charge of so that we can settle everything asap! jiayou sports comm! =D

ok now the bad. XU LONG WE MUST JIAYOUUUUU. sigh our gao3 liang4 is like sai4 liddat. total shit i dont know why everyone not writing. siah lah i was complaining and saying that everyone really got so little time? jiahui jie told me its not about time, its about effort.

but write article... not really very difficult wad. got nth to write meh? u take a list of ur sch sports cca, randomly select one ur interested in. if competition over u write a report if competition havent start u write a preview. AND U GET 30 BUCKS! offset $10 membership fee and u get extra $20!(if ur article is published). but aiya now me and qite got one month to psycho everyone. which is SO wat i dont like to do. ))):

on a brighter note: SIMPSONS MOVIE COMING OUT 26th JULY! I CANT WAIT TO WATCH!!!! xDDD



the cynic spoke @ 7:12 PM

Saturday, July 14, 2007
there goes my shen diao. just now last episode show finish. now got nth to look forward to on saturdays but zhou ri ba dian dang. and meetings on sunday. LOL.

i tink this show was extremely well done. from the cast to the places which they picked to film the show. china is sooooo big and got so many nice places with beautiful scenery la!(must PRESERVE THESE you industrial shitheads). last time TCS film de shen diao go whr? xiao gui lin. ><

yea and despite wat others say, i still tink liu yifei was a fine choice to play xiao long nv. but huang xiao ming as yang guo was probably the best lar! at first when he act young yang guo i watch liao felt abit uncomfortable. like he act until very unnatural liddat. but later part of the show especially after 16 years that part he played the character damn well la! can really feel the emotions in yang guo.

yea thats all. meeting tmr! WOOTS! =DDD



the cynic spoke @ 10:02 PM

ok i finally found time to settle down and blog about jiamin's birthday. after almost 2 weeks. WOW. actually could have blogged long ago but i wanted more photos but i realise now im not gonna get them any sooner. hahaha.

it was bbq at east coast park. 2nd july monday(youth day holiday). the previous day i suggested bringing a banner there reading "celebrating 16 years of existence - zhuang jiamin justina". but it was deemed too attention-seeking HAHA.

met qite and mincong at paya lebar in the morning to buy her present. no wait i thought we bought it the day before? LOL ya we did we bought her a reebok skipping rope. but she said she was fine with anything, so we granted her wish! MY IDEA LA I ROCK RIGHT I AM TOTALLY FULL OF SHIT LOL. we went singapore post mall fair price buy anything for her. at first we wanted to buy one can. then mincong said 3. then i said one carton(i stupidly thought one carton is 6 cans). we asked one guy there help us find. then realised one carton is 24 cans. LOL luckily the guy couldnt find it. so we settled with 3 cans of anything(and figured she would say whatever when she saw them). hahahaha.

gave her present, ate some food, lazed around, loaned bicycle, then sang birthday song with birthday cake! ya then when we were taking pics, i was intending to avoid sitting with the birthday girl. but no someone pointed at the space between us and said "zhe3 li4 you3 dong4!"(or sth liddat) THEN PROCEEDED TO MENG3 PUSH ME IN. WOW. just totally foil my plan right?

didnt really do much i guess. but still enjoyed myself alot! we just ate ate and ate. talked talked and talked. ya then went cycling for some time. didnt noe how to cycle(note to self: go and learn) so hitched mincong's ride haha. he had to fetch me LOL and he was complaining like siao. haha yea it was just pure enjoyment la. the only regret was not eating enough. even though i ate alot. HAHA. i always enjoy myself with titong peeps!

saw jingwei there also. like wow the first thing she did when she saw me was to suan me. LOL. appeared for a while and disappeared. saw her roller blading when we were cycling. lmao.

ok photos. slideshow courtesy of jiamin herself.

ok this hasnt been very detailed. go jiamin's blog(link justina on the left) for more info. LOL!

the cynic spoke @ 2:09 PM

SHIT. talkingcock will be going offline for one month until 13th aug.

NOOOOOOOO!!!!!



the cynic spoke @ 12:39 PM

Friday, July 13, 2007
no inter-ug tmr. the planning is totally screwed i tink they shld just scrap the whole thing.

good thing i can get more rest though.



the cynic spoke @ 11:31 PM

dont miss hakim singing CHINESE song!(ai dao). LOL!



the cynic spoke @ 5:56 PM

its FRIDAY. end of the sch week again! xD

sch passed quite fast today. (somehow it passes fast everyday now). like just pass damn fast. really really fast. haha.

went for some stupid translation competition after sch. alr got knocked out in the prelims. LOL not bad la got a chance to go home earlier. after competition went new sch gym look around. not bad la, but i decided im not a gym type. i wont have the drive to go everyday. o.0

apparently tmr got inter-ug. only knew about today. lol dont even know time and who we playing. sian la i want go(havent played soccer in a damn long time)but i want my sleep also. zzz...



the cynic spoke @ 5:44 PM

Wednesday, July 11, 2007
i've refrained from saying too much. but no ppl want to continue to talk about it.

first things first. xu guohao's singing IS POOR. thats my opinion(and alot of other ppls' too). even if he IS working hard.

secondly. my opinion does not stem from the fact that im from ri. whether or not im from ri does not make a difference as to whether i can criticize him or not. everyone has the right to criticize him. he wat? made of gold ah? how can you say i cant criticize him and then go on to scold me? thats totally hilarious.

thirdly. this is a singing competition. if i dont judge him with my ears, what do i judge him by? my hands ah? or my legs?

really la i agree with ur. so what if im from ri? i can be from any other school and criticize him all the same.



the cynic spoke @ 8:08 PM

went to support at the swim finals today. which is i would not have gone if the class hadnt been selected to go. then went there and spent half the time tinking about how to escape. in the end decided to stay cos i wanted to watch the relays which were the last events. lol.

didnt cheer much. nvr liked cheering for raffles. the only time i cheered was for ng jiahao during his events and for tzekang during relay. which is cheer for friends nia. the whole grp of ri wasnt cheering very loud anw. like only the rj ri and rg prefects/councillors were the ones cheering the loudest and the rg girls were cheering somewhat enthusiastically. and i didnt noe half the cheers they did. just suddenly invented or sth. dumbness.

yea and like half the specs pon ncc to come for this or sth. all the exco except fawaz were present at the meet. LOL i wonder how training went.

then saw tao li swim. really tink she shldnt take part in inter sch comp haha. she has the right of cos. but its like waste her time or sth cos she just owns. she dive alr cover almost half the pool liao pls. just go there and break records LOL.

so ri won b div. again. lost c div though. no double gold. but no im not sure cos i didnt stay for prize presentation. hahaha.

probably the last sports event i go support for ri. oh wells.



the cynic spoke @ 6:49 PM

Tuesday, July 10, 2007
i currently have 4 big pieces of plaster on my back. to relieve the ache. act like deep heat liddat but feels damn cool haha. hopefully it'll be better la.

then yijun and jiahao told me someone died from poisoning after applying too much deep heat. ><



the cynic spoke @ 10:59 PM

out of respect for mr. xu guohao, i deleted that post on him. must say it was quite offensive and shall apologise for that. good luck to him cos he'll need alot of it.

still tink his singing IS MEDIOCRE though.



the cynic spoke @ 7:14 PM

Monday, July 9, 2007
my thighs are %&$^*&(*&U*) pain now.

PAIN. ACHE. CANNOT CLIMB STAIRS. feel like chopping them off.(my ass).

cos i jumped n times to clear standing broad jump AND PASS NAPFA. TMD. STUPID SBJ. i was jumping 205, 205, 205, 205... which is 205 is 1 cm from passing mark. nabeh. in the end teacher ask me take off shoes. finally cleared 206 at my first attempt. guai lan. i cant bloody jump and i got get how sbj is a measure of ur fitness.

in the first place, getting gold for NAPFA doesnt mean you are fit. it just means you are not fat, you are relatively strong, you can run 40m relatively fast, you are quite flexible, you can jump quite far and you dont walk when u run long distances. totally bullshit. i can do everything besides jumping far and i know i am quite fit. dots...

and its totally stupid when you dont prepare for something and do well for it and when you do ur best to prepare for it you screw it up. that is just SHIT!



the cynic spoke @ 5:00 PM

Sunday, July 8, 2007
baoguan is such a nice place, i feel like going there everyday! after school. whatever.

just a 10 minute walk from my school. how convenient sia!



the cynic spoke @ 10:54 PM

today went baoguan! reached at 12.30 and was quite surprised there was no one there yet. normally will have ppl there liao. maybe i was too early haha.

meeting was quite...disorganized i guess. maybe its cos we werent really focused yet. discussed many other things. hoho. and soccer is back in again! it was damn funny soccer became the most voted sport during the re-vote after being out originally. haha so now the finalised sports are: soccer, basketball, floorball and captain's ball. we get down to business next week. jiayou everyone!

and next week is last episode of shen diao liao! i tink the next show will be quite lousy LOL. that means weekends less good shows le. SAD!



the cynic spoke @ 8:49 PM

Saturday, July 7, 2007
yeah support live earth and heal the planet. but i cant help being cynical. like got so many ways to reach out help save earth, why use some concert? like emitting more carbon right? u get ppl all over the world to watch for 24 hours. thats ppl turning on tv and com for 24 hours. thats more electricity consumption. more fossil fuels burnt. more carbon produced.

concert right? generate more rubbish. i'll tell you probably only the japs will be conscious enough to clean up after themselves. thats more pollution. celebrities fly right? more carbon emmisions.

america and china? wait arent they carbon emmittors numbers 1 and 2? what IRONY.

the world is screwed up la. simply because of the fact that we need celebrities to raise awareness instead of just automatically doing it ourselves. come on, the earth is getting hotter! doesnt the weather nowadays just PISS YOU OFF? oh i forgot, you got air-con.

like celebrities raising awareness for everything or sth. soccer stars supporting AIDS campaigns, anti-racism campaigns. celebrities helping ex-convicts get accepted into society. now celebs themselves have to seek forgiveness after going to jail. wat bullshit.

in the end, it all starts with us. we're not going to be able wait for Bush to step down/get assassinated/die suddenly before something is done. we cant wait for al gore to be elected as president cos that day might never come. the world's most powerful man is just one man after all. hes not God. all of us have to do something.

yea so just start today if u havent started long ago. save electricity and save money at the same time. grow more trees. stop asking ur moms and dads to fetch you. take public transport. reject homework from school. save paper. (LOL!). sleep naked and dont turn on air con. watch "The Inconvenient Truth". Understand be Be Inspired. aspire to be an environmentalist when you grow up. stop mugging late into the night so that you dont need light and can save electricity. and like duh you reduce the amount of plastic bags you use. dont use at all if possible.

if al gore runs for the next elections, vote for him if you are american.

oh, and if u really support live earth, dont be so cynical. ^^



the cynic spoke @ 10:18 PM

answer the call. heal the planet. wear green tmr!



the cynic spoke @ 10:00 PM

woots meeting resumes tmr! CANT WAIT TO GO BAOGUAN AND SEE 10 JIE TMR! xDD



the cynic spoke @ 9:56 PM

Friday, July 6, 2007
“不要跟猪打架。跟猪打架，你只会把自己弄得很肮脏，猪很开心。”



the cynic spoke @ 6:47 PM

Thursday, July 5, 2007
i've never really had a good impression of you. i can even say i dislike you. then i found ur blog. i read a few posts. and i decided you are ONE TOTAL PIECE OF FUCK-UP.

i've never met anyone so arrogant, narcissistic, vain, fake and petty before. bloody hypocrite. u wat, mug until ur brains wiring all screwed up liao?

so what if ur results are good? go get a fucking life.



the cynic spoke @ 9:00 PM

on a side note, man utd are apparently set to sign carlos tevez according to reports. if he really moves to man utd, man utd will be like total ownage. nani, anderson, hargreaves and now tevez. imagine strikeforce of rooney and tevez.

and tevez will be a better buy than torres!



the cynic spoke @ 6:45 PM

today was ncc day.. woke up earlier than usual to go sch earlier and change. lol saw one part A at the junction while walking to sch... and he wasnt wearing no. 4 and didnt bring it either. he saw me, got scared, and quickly RAN (yes he RAN) away to walk the path along the rafflesia there. stupid guai lan idiot. kept stealing glances at me from across the road. then when i approaching sch gate saw him stop cos he probably didnt want to meet me at the gate and purposely dont want cross road(scared i scold).

was parade commander. not bad la. shouted damn loud and damn clear(wat else could i have done?) LOL. headmaster told me "good commands" after flag raising. now i can retire in grace LMAO. luckily we nvr screw up a single thing. last ncc day liao, really didnt want anything to go wrong. then afterward when all ncc cadets were supposed to gather the part A didnt turn up. even other ppl who didnt wear no.4 turned up. total piece of shit i'll screw him personally and badly next training.

took grp photos.

the time was 7.55am
click for full size

school was dumb. had 3 lessons nia cos last 2 lessons were SS(free period) and CLE(considered a free period cos we do nth every lesson). some ppl went home during SS. like lmao. was playing bball with charles in class. tried some behind-the-back passes which like over 10 attempts hit the window. lucky the window nvr break sia. LOL.

yea after sch walked around braddell with jeff and zsd.. then went nyps collect portfolio......this time the guard let me without any trouble in cos he couldnt be bothered(wow so irresponsible LOL). decided that taking 157 to bukit batok then take train home will allow me to reach home faster than taking 67 to CCK then take train to yew tee when going home from bukit timah. WOW so random.

my life is so boring other ppl would cry reading it and die living it. =.="'

the cynic spoke @ 6:10 PM

Wednesday, July 4, 2007
either theres a problem with me, or theres a problem with my sleeping hours.

was practically murdered by headache today. felt extremely horrible, and basically wanted to sleep for the whole day. no energy at all. like some walking zombie.......

i need... another break. friday pls come quick.



the cynic spoke @ 7:13 PM

Tuesday, July 3, 2007

hmmm....

HMMMM.......

SOMEONE HELP HIM WEAR HIS PANTS PROPERLY OR CHARGE HIM FOR INDECENT EXPOSURE! but that's some hot ass.

WOW.

LOL we went on to siao when buying card. crazy shit. its always crazy when you go out with titong ppl. LMAO. yea sth even more siao happened at CD-rama after that! BUT ITS CLASSIFIED. TOP SECRET. LOL. had fun!

the cynic spoke @ 8:33 PM

went nyps with yijun after school today to pass ms yee our portfolios.

didnt do much. loitered around for a while at coro plaza and decided its still as crap as ever. i wonder how they even survive, let alone do business. even the LAN shop has closed down, now who's business do they make?

then went ny. still had to exchange ez link for visitor pass which is dumb. wat can we possibly do? then just walked around the school while waiting for ms yee to finish the course. explore explore, saw some familiar faces, including the principal at the canteen. the school didnt really change much ba, except the quadragle in the old building where they decided to grow trees and create a pond. lol remembered how we would go out play soccer in the middle of compo class and the teacher wouldnt care. =.=

the school was damn quiet, probably cos the classes all in the morning now. and we were looking highly suspicious walking around the campus.

then damn funny we saw mr. chew the music teacher who was so gay we called him mrs. chew last time. LOL! i rmbr he screamed at us b4. anw at first saw him liao he nodded head at us but we kinda dao-ed him. then later meet ms yee le when she went back office he saw us again. then ask( in chinese): "see me liao never call me ah?" totally hilarious.

yea just passed her our portfolio. it was kinda awkward i guess. still have to go back on thursday to get the stuff back. haha hopefully she got the time to finish ba. oh wells.



the cynic spoke @ 6:20 PM

Monday, July 2, 2007
anw had fun ytd and today. shall blog about it another day when i have time!



the cynic spoke @ 11:12 PM

but the world has so many other ppl more unfortunate than me. i shld feel ashamed of myself or sth...

i really need to sort myself out.



the cynic spoke @ 10:40 PM

有人说：“休息是为了走更长的路。”

放了一个月的假，上了三天的课后又放了五天的短假后，我却不觉得如此，反而更想休息。有时候真的实在太累了，身心都疲惫，真想就这样放下一切，什么都不管，逍遥自在，多自由。但是由始至终却从来没勇气这么做。我有太多责任在身了，不能那么自私，但也因此，超多时候就迷失了自己。真的，很多人都有目标，知道自己要什么。我的前途却是一大片雾，不清不楚，真担心闯进去后会有什么样的结果。

或许人越成熟，想的事情也变多了，思维也改变了。现在，我越来越不明白我现在所做的一切是为了什么。为了让别人开心吗？还是为了不让别人失望？我不知道。我只知道，我不知道我现在所做的对我未来有会有什么帮助。那天，我问了老妈，问她既然我肯定以后不会继续往这一方面发展，为何还要认真对待它呢？老妈说我有这样的想法是错的。她说，现在的事就是现在的事，必须要认真对待它。不能说以后没用就不管。这一番话，算是点醒我了吧。

很多人问我，为什么我好像无忧无虑，没烦恼。其实就是因为我不管，我不屑。快乐，是可以伪装的。我从来就不会把不快乐的事说出来，通常就是憋在心里，自己承担，除非真的是非常要好的朋友问起。别人也有自己的烦恼，干吗要再去添呢？宁愿身边的人都快乐，因为我喜欢看到别人快乐。所以我不喜欢说，却喜欢听，喜欢帮别人，仔细想想，这也蛮变态的嘛。

或许，我只是突然累了吧。而且，真的好累，好累，好累........　我，需要喘气。



the cynic spoke @ 10:04 PM

Sunday, July 1, 2007
dear muquan:

holidays are over. you need to snap out of holiday mood. you need to stop going out. you need to stop using the com and seriously get work done when you actually have the time at home. this term is gonna be hectic. you still have tiyuri to plan and you cannot make the whole thing screw up because of your inability, or else you'll be letting everyone down. you need to stop procrastinating. you need to gain focus and complete everything. the syllabus will be over this term. just put everything aside (besides titong of course) and focus on WORK. or else you'll just die a pathetic death. stop being so slack. you need to listen to mom and dad, study hard.

of course, you know nothing that was said above will actually happen. but you still have to make an effort to at least try and make it happen. buck up muquan, or else you are SCREWED.

yours truly,
yourself



the cynic spoke @ 11:33 PM

for those who only noe the first line (like me):

问世间情为何物，直教生死相许？
天南地北双飞客，老翅几回寒暑？
欢乐趣，离别苦，就中更有痴儿女。
君应有语，渺万里层云，千山暮雪，只影向谁去？
--元好问



the cynic spoke @ 6:36 PM